Chiong work a few days after last paper.
for like 10 consecutive days?
lol right now the feeling then sets in.
i've already graduate, finally after 3 years.
time flies so fast that another phase of my life has went by already.
somehow, it makes me feel somewhat more mature, more sensible.
actually, felt older already.
after the things that went thru, i guess it makes me a better person.
right now, i can only embrace everyday of my life right now, before the end of FO
Which marks the end of our stint in CADC.
Feelings unexplainable, can't be described in words.

I look for the sense of fulfillment within myself everyday, so that when the day is over and it is time to sleep, I feel contented. =)

Learn to be independent.
Do the things I feel like doing.
Go to the places I feel like going.
Learning to derive joy from the things I do.
Gradually find out the things that you really like to do.
Find out the feeling that you like to keep.
Appreciating whatever you have right now.
Making out the various, big and small choices of your life.
To crave out a path for oneself.
To be able to do all these independently, without the need of company from others.
Only then you can lead the life of your own.
Where you find your true self, your true desires, your true passion.
And decide which are the most important things to you.

Graduation is nearing and every single day.
Going 20 soon.
I'm no longer young anymore.
I'm going to be a young adult.
It is time to be independent.
To know what I really want in life.
Just like the times when i knew that,
Basketball is the 1 & only thing I want to strive for in my life
Where I work hard to overcome all obstacles for my passion, no matter how hard it seems to be,
No matter how people look at me,
I still see the single goal right in my mind.
Although I had lost that passion already for the past few years,
I'm going to find a new 1 in the next few years.
Months hopefully?
When I found it, it would be like the same before.
Striving for the passion of my life.
I'm not going to be as impatient as before.
As lost as before.
For I'm going to learn how to lead my life properly first,
before anything else comes in.
And the first step,
Is to learn to be truly independent.
Good luck to me. ;D

These are the stuffs that I am going to aim for in 2011.

Before NS:
Hope can pass all the relevant tests n interviews to get to pilot vocation.
Finish all my projects and modules decently at least.
Do my best for whatever that i can do for club and the upcoming/last FO with CADC.
2.4km timing of at least 9min 30sec consistent.
At least 15 reps of pull-ups at one go and consistent.
Learn how to swim completely and consistently.
Nice body shape.
Get driving license.
Learn something new and interesting.
Earn more money for personal expenses, and buy a desktop home for everyone to use.

During NS:
IPPT gold.
Get into OCS.
Get into pilot vocation and go all the way to be a pilot.

Jiayou to me!! ;D

It is the 1st day of the new year 2011.
Initially thought I will be spending my new year eve alone yesterday.
But in d end Oscar jio out go eat dinner with a few other friends.
Met and went to eat Astons in lavender before Nick and QY went off and the few of us head to vivo to slack.
After that the few of us saw fireworks, kenneth came and shortly after we went back.
Chatted with him with some alcohol brought from 7eleven then head straight to my house.
Talk about many stuffs in the past til now.
Time just passed to fast for all of us. Just in a blink of an eye, life in poly is going to end for us in a few more months time.
Somehow someway just feel that it is too tiring to do some stuffs, like wad every1 would do when they were year 1 or year 2. Just feel that the few close and 知心 friends are all that really matters already in d end. After all, we have all really gone thru alot of stuffs for the past years in poly already.
The progression of 1 year from 2010 to 2011, brings me closer to the fact that we are all going to graduate and gonna leave club already.
Sometimes it is hard to accept, but still have to accept this.
Just wish to cherish everything that i have now, and peacefully walk finish the rest of my poly life with my friends.

让时间治好所有以前的悲伤, 藏好美好的时光, 珍惜现在所有的一切, 抬起头来不停的望前走..
From 2011 onwards, I would carry this mentality and to,
- Work hard towards and acheive whatever that I want to acheive
- Cherishing what ever that I have.
- Facing and making the most of my life everyday.

And most importantly, learn to stay strong and be contented. =)

1st year.. Doing, Choosing, Sacrificing, Confusing, Disappointing
2nd year.. Giving, Teaching, Choosing, Sacrificing, Guiding, Despair, Disappointing, Helpless
3rd year.. Letting Go, Healing, Cherishing, Wondering.
Graduation.. Moving On.

What matters in the ultimate end, is the fruitful experience, happy memories and the people that would still remain by your side.

We can't stop the clock from ticking, because time waits for no man.
Time flies.
Never regretted any actions, be it correct or wrong to the public's eye.
For with every action that one takes, there is always a reason.

whatever that belongs to you, comes back to you in d long run. whatever that does not, just treat it as a beautiful memory. =)

Smile cause there are many things we can smile at;
Be Happy cause that's what keeps our day going easier;
Forgive cause grudges drain our energy;
Don't forget cause history moulds our future;
Open your heart cause this makes it easier for people to enter your life;
Be optimistic cause things happen for a reason;
Accept the reality cause it makes life easier for us to cope;
Believe in fate cause some things are fated to be in that way for a reason;
Treasure and Love cause it is something close to our heart;
Hope cause in life we need some things to motivate us;
Reminisce cause great memories are like happy pills to blue days;
Value cause most things are impermanent;
Be strong cause there are many challenges up ahead for us to conquer;
Know your wants cause this will prevent us from falling into illusions which can be a trap;
Be true to yourself cause it's easier to be ourselves this way;
Learn to let go cause that's how we move forward;
No regrets to the decision made now cause life is simply too short to live in remorse and lastly
Accept the changes occurring cause "change" is something that doesn't change in life.

Sometimes, you feel ready to do something, to move on, to live. Sometimes you still lose the courage to face your life and everything. I'm confused, by the things around me, and by myself. Everything seems so pointless.
Nobody would ever understand.
I totally got no idea how my mood can change so abruptly from time to time.

I just need a break sometimes..
from everyday's life
to fuck care about everything else that is to be care about.
and just emo it out.
I just need some courage.
Some courage to go on.