random mood, random post.
the song that i like. (:
I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know
Chorus: I 'm all out of love,
I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long I 'm all out of love,
what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say
if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way,
it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone,
I'll be gone
Chorus Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
what are you thinking of? =\
Discover yourself, decide what you want. After that, simply do whatever you can to achieve it. It doesn't matter how the outcome would turn out at the end, just know and make sure that til the very last moment of my life, I won't live in regret. :)
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Monday, May 18, 2009
just back from sch not long ago.
today EEE match, we lost 49-51.
it was a close game and was quite disappointing that we fail to clinch the win.
there are much stuffs happen thru out the match though.
and sky argued with one of the guys from EEE.
over refree mistakes, and some miscalculation of points.
it was quite frustrating lah but aiya nvm bah, these kind of things do happen.
when we play, we aren't playing as a team yet.
but well, on the bright note, we did much better than the last friendly bah.
actually abit reluctant to play pg, esp for cadc.
though i did better this time round, but still cant really control my players well.
i like to attack and score, though it feels nice to playmake too.
today morning woke up, i feeling worst than the night before.
so skip morning lessons today and went to see doctor.
it was feeling sucks man this whole day, not feeling well.
but heng nvr affect my game performance much.
sian, u didn stay on for the match, lol.
you think you have gone through alot. you just haven listen to my part of story yet. and here i am, still not giving up, not forgetting the reason that keeps me going on.
today EEE match, we lost 49-51.
it was a close game and was quite disappointing that we fail to clinch the win.
there are much stuffs happen thru out the match though.
and sky argued with one of the guys from EEE.
over refree mistakes, and some miscalculation of points.
it was quite frustrating lah but aiya nvm bah, these kind of things do happen.
when we play, we aren't playing as a team yet.
but well, on the bright note, we did much better than the last friendly bah.
actually abit reluctant to play pg, esp for cadc.
though i did better this time round, but still cant really control my players well.
i like to attack and score, though it feels nice to playmake too.
today morning woke up, i feeling worst than the night before.
so skip morning lessons today and went to see doctor.
it was feeling sucks man this whole day, not feeling well.
but heng nvr affect my game performance much.
sian, u didn stay on for the match, lol.
you think you have gone through alot. you just haven listen to my part of story yet. and here i am, still not giving up, not forgetting the reason that keeps me going on.
it has been 1 week since i last blog.
lols but quite alot of things happen past this week.
1. started to go for SP training ever since gotten in the selection.
2. nvr go minyi already. cos no more second team, and want to concentrate on SP team instead.
3. started maple with club peeps.
and yea major stuffs like that only bah.
and my maple character > bandit. but lvl 20 only still a rogue, lols.
was quite fun actually, skyping with them while playing maple.
at least wunt so no life haha.
but when chiong lvl alone, damn sian.
lols but well, at least there is 1 more thing i can do at home lah haha.
anyway, have to work hard for SP team.
i srsly want to get into the team.
though it is no guaranteed, and i am at a disadvantage.
but well, just play bah.
found out that playing forward is very relaxing, compare to pg.
i can attack freely or do wadever i want.
and manage to be a threat being a forward.
is it really i am more suitable to play as forward, or am i running away from being a pg?
lols srsly duno sia.
guess like wad a good friend of mine says.
just play the kind of ball i want, just play what it belongs to me de playing style.
it kindof work sia. i felt happier on the court.
i should nvr forget y i want to train/play ball sia.
so yea. just enjoy the game.
tml is friendly match against EEE.
lols see wad will happen tml bah.
lols but quite alot of things happen past this week.
1. started to go for SP training ever since gotten in the selection.
2. nvr go minyi already. cos no more second team, and want to concentrate on SP team instead.
3. started maple with club peeps.
and yea major stuffs like that only bah.
and my maple character > bandit. but lvl 20 only still a rogue, lols.
was quite fun actually, skyping with them while playing maple.
at least wunt so no life haha.
but when chiong lvl alone, damn sian.
lols but well, at least there is 1 more thing i can do at home lah haha.
anyway, have to work hard for SP team.
i srsly want to get into the team.
though it is no guaranteed, and i am at a disadvantage.
but well, just play bah.
found out that playing forward is very relaxing, compare to pg.
i can attack freely or do wadever i want.
and manage to be a threat being a forward.
is it really i am more suitable to play as forward, or am i running away from being a pg?
lols srsly duno sia.
guess like wad a good friend of mine says.
just play the kind of ball i want, just play what it belongs to me de playing style.
it kindof work sia. i felt happier on the court.
i should nvr forget y i want to train/play ball sia.
so yea. just enjoy the game.
tml is friendly match against EEE.
lols see wad will happen tml bah.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
today woke up at 4pm.
i missed a study session with some gaia people. so sorry about that.
intended to go training at night.
in d end, there is no training for under 19.
only got under 17 ppl training.
so ownself train for 1 hour like that, they need use full court liao.
so leave the place.
go find lawson at serangoon.
while waiting for him, been thinking alot of things.
lols abit discouraged bah of recent things.
and yea we hang out awhile, then jiu go home already.
wasted the whole day today.
sianzation. hope tml will be a better day. (:
it is so tiring to care so much.
when no 1 even cares.
i missed a study session with some gaia people. so sorry about that.
intended to go training at night.
in d end, there is no training for under 19.
only got under 17 ppl training.
so ownself train for 1 hour like that, they need use full court liao.
so leave the place.
go find lawson at serangoon.
while waiting for him, been thinking alot of things.
lols abit discouraged bah of recent things.
and yea we hang out awhile, then jiu go home already.
wasted the whole day today.
sianzation. hope tml will be a better day. (:
it is so tiring to care so much.
when no 1 even cares.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
today went for welfare intrium event.
it is the last comm event for intrium and yea as usual had our games
planned by the year ones. (:
it was quite fun bah, did enjoy myself with debate comm today, as i was posted to that comm.
the games r quite entertaining haha, at least to me lah.
onli that the finale was abit wierd, cause we play silent captain ball.
and we r not supposed to talk. =x
quite wierd wor, but still ok lah, everybody enjoy mah, lols. (:
and i had my face smashed with flour! zzz lols.
then we went to LT14A to have our prizes presentations and some traditonal finale games.
we seniors hid the year1s shoes/slippers.
some including myself, LOL wear their shoes and act yi ge duno. haha.
after the event, went clementi eat with the rest, before rching home arnd 12am.
sian sia, no different from training days, where i have to wake up early and sleep late LOL.
but still ok lah, it is worth it to be with them haha.
tml is another tiring day.
8am to 12pm lesson~
1pm to 5pm lesson~
7pm to 11pm bball training at minyi~
lols machaim got only 3 hours break nia for my scheldue tml zzzz.
but bo bian just hang on bah.
i must already know these consequences already since i've taken this path yea.
possibilty of second team forming is getting lesser and lesser..
I would be lieing if i dont say i am disappointed.
already 2 years i missed out on youth cup, for various stuipd reasons.
and this year is the 3rd year already.
but dont care bah, just concentrate on getting better.
my bball path doesn stop here.
life doesn stop here too.
i would just preservere till the end bah.
like what michael jordan had said
failure gives me strength, my pain gives me motivation
because of his failure then he can succeed.
and other than courage, he has one more thing, which is patience.
lols seriously i took him as a role model.
though since end of olvl i keep believing this.
but no result yet.
though i know my skills will not lose people.
yet i still duno how to apply my skills well yet.
and i haven been working really hard too, come to think of it. esp after coming to poly.
guess i've been thru enough to stop me from giving up all this.
and yea i will not give up.
cos i know i will succeed one day.
if i continue to work hard, work smart and BELIEVE.
lols i duno whether i sound like a bullshit.
saying all this lols.
but my heart really felt so, so i dont care what others say.
lols however, it will be nice to have some1 to confide to.
but perhaps, it takes alot to trust others bah.
in anyway, also have to be independent yea.
lols ok think shall stop this.
if not ppl gonna say i emo again, LOL
and yea now already past 2am le.
gonna catch some sleep for the next 4 to 5 hours.
before going back to school, lols.
again, wish me luck yea, lols.. (:
it is the last comm event for intrium and yea as usual had our games
planned by the year ones. (:
it was quite fun bah, did enjoy myself with debate comm today, as i was posted to that comm.
the games r quite entertaining haha, at least to me lah.
onli that the finale was abit wierd, cause we play silent captain ball.
and we r not supposed to talk. =x
quite wierd wor, but still ok lah, everybody enjoy mah, lols. (:
and i had my face smashed with flour! zzz lols.
then we went to LT14A to have our prizes presentations and some traditonal finale games.
we seniors hid the year1s shoes/slippers.
some including myself, LOL wear their shoes and act yi ge duno. haha.
after the event, went clementi eat with the rest, before rching home arnd 12am.
sian sia, no different from training days, where i have to wake up early and sleep late LOL.
but still ok lah, it is worth it to be with them haha.
tml is another tiring day.
8am to 12pm lesson~
1pm to 5pm lesson~
7pm to 11pm bball training at minyi~
lols machaim got only 3 hours break nia for my scheldue tml zzzz.
but bo bian just hang on bah.
i must already know these consequences already since i've taken this path yea.
possibilty of second team forming is getting lesser and lesser..
I would be lieing if i dont say i am disappointed.
already 2 years i missed out on youth cup, for various stuipd reasons.
and this year is the 3rd year already.
but dont care bah, just concentrate on getting better.
my bball path doesn stop here.
life doesn stop here too.
i would just preservere till the end bah.
like what michael jordan had said
failure gives me strength, my pain gives me motivation
because of his failure then he can succeed.
and other than courage, he has one more thing, which is patience.
lols seriously i took him as a role model.
though since end of olvl i keep believing this.
but no result yet.
though i know my skills will not lose people.
yet i still duno how to apply my skills well yet.
and i haven been working really hard too, come to think of it. esp after coming to poly.
guess i've been thru enough to stop me from giving up all this.
and yea i will not give up.
cos i know i will succeed one day.
if i continue to work hard, work smart and BELIEVE.
lols i duno whether i sound like a bullshit.
saying all this lols.
but my heart really felt so, so i dont care what others say.
lols however, it will be nice to have some1 to confide to.
but perhaps, it takes alot to trust others bah.
in anyway, also have to be independent yea.
lols ok think shall stop this.
if not ppl gonna say i emo again, LOL
and yea now already past 2am le.
gonna catch some sleep for the next 4 to 5 hours.
before going back to school, lols.
again, wish me luck yea, lols.. (:
Sunday, May 3, 2009
after so many days.
have finally think it through.
clear my thoughts.
i know now, which is my chosen path.
what i wanted.
and that goal will be kept fresh in my mind all the time.
dont want to tui bu qi not only those who understands, but myself too.
only i know what is within me.
give me some blessing yea.
(:
have finally think it through.
clear my thoughts.
i know now, which is my chosen path.
what i wanted.
and that goal will be kept fresh in my mind all the time.
dont want to tui bu qi not only those who understands, but myself too.
only i know what is within me.
give me some blessing yea.
(:
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