Wow time flies and 3 months over OCS has passed.
If I were to say everything that happened for the past few months,
this post will be flooded.
And yea, I'm quite lazy to pen down everything anyway. ;x
I just finished MSTD 01/12, having sailed to 3 different countries in 6 weeks.
The experience is of coz 1 of it's kind, n looking back,
it was quite filled up meaningfully too, even though I'm just a pre-mid,
haven't really started the course yet.
I still remember vaguely on the first day of OCS, when everyone feels
like shit.
The surroundings feels competitive, n people tends to group
with the people that they already knew through the same bmt coy or
any other kind of friendships too.
Alot of things looks superficial n it's quite difficult to find some1 that I can
really clique.
Expectations were weighed on us and alot of things r really different
in the way OCS is.
Though I've sailed 6 weeks with my batch boys from MIDS,
but still the sense of belonging feels missing.
I don't really feel that I can sync well with my batch boys.
Not as in don't like, but is just don't clique.
Mayb it's just me? I don't know.
The course commander don't seems to fancy me alot either.
Lol it's like a wrong footing at the start.
Oh well, I guess I can't do much about this kinda thing
but just maintain a positive attitude n do everything to my best
n to my own conscience.
Hopefully as time goes by, things would turn out for the better.
Now is April, 9 more months to go before commissioning.
Every now n then, I had the fear of OOC-ing.
was asking myself whether I could make the mark and meet up to
all the expectations weigh on us anot.
But ultimately in the end, I can't just give up without trying my best
to achieve it, isn't it true?
Actually I think I can do it, just that I think too much into it,
as always like before.
So for this 9 months, no matter how tough the going might get.
I must grit through my teeth, take the hardship and go all the way.
This is a challenge n I'm going to fucking achieve this.
