Just a thought

How much would u actually commit yourself to something.

Sometimes we thought of the idealistic picture of excelling and giving your 100% in whatever things that u do as n when you like it. But have we ever thought of how much we want to commit ourselves to it? What if it takes requires your full attention of your life currently, to concentrate on a single goal in mind so that u can actually reach that goal with the level of standard that u wanted? What if it takes few years of your life out to a completely new n unfamiliar environment, in order to maximize your potential in the path of route that you've chosen? Do u still feel the same rush of fire like when u felt initially? R u prepared or even going to make this commitment? R u even prepared to sacrifice other priorities in your life for this when the time comes for us to decide our options?

Have we ever gave our 100% to the priority that we set for ourselves? Or it's just making this promise to myself and eventually just go along the flow. Instead of waiting for things to happen, r we actually making things happen?

What is the end state in mind that u visualize yourself in? What is the kind of feeling u r yearning for when u r doing something?
I used to have the strong drive in me back then for basketball, because I commit myself to my dream, yearning n desiring it to happen. Which is to from a rookie basketball player to become a national or even a professional player. How does it feel to hold your stand for something u love, sticking n committing yourself to it, having faith in the beliefs u believe in, donning the courage to face n overcome all obstacles n becoming a better person after that.

How does it feel having to service your men, guiding them, helping them to become a better person? How does it feels to actually make an impact in another person's life, when u see them becoming a better person. The sense of appreciation n gratitude in their eyes, the warm n joy that we would all share after leading n going through hardships together. What is the passion of leading n guiding people?

What is the feeling of the sense of competency of accomplishing a task? Especially when it's a difficult task, that u managed to achieve it even though many would discourage saying that it's impossible to do it? How does it feels to sticking to what's right n what's possible, while many choose to follow the easier path to go to. How does it feels after overcoming all these challenges, the sense of accomplishment and fulfillment.

How do u feel when u make important decisions, which might impact other's life n all kind of big effects. What would you do if your decision now, could really onset n change your life to something. R u prepare for change in your life?

As many people says, change is the only constant in life. How prepared r u in facing changes in your life? How prepared r u to lose something that u truly cherish for the benefit of the greater good?

I could only visualize,
and was interested, so
I came in wanting to find out more.
I had my fears n my uneasiness.
I had my own doubts about myself.
My capabilities n all.
And so whenever I felt uncomfortable,
I knew that this is the kind of challenge I'm looking for.
For it's not that it's not suited to me, but it's just pushing me out of my own comfort zone.
Accomplishing things that I never knew I could accomplish.
It's testing my character on a day to day basis,
n I know I should open up more by now.
I used to thought that I lose my sense of direction, not knowing what I really want in life
But in fact,
I knew what I want, the direction that I'm going to.
But it's just I chose not to acknowledge n take ownership fully.
For I'm scare of failures, scare of future obstacles.
Scare of making decisions.
It can be related to past experiences.
Yet as humans, we chose to remember the negatives of an experience,
the can't be done part,
but we never remind ourselves of the positives,
that actually, we eventually overcome all obstacles in d end,
provided that we persist on n never gave up.
The first step is always the hardest to make, n is always the most feared step.
Right now it is the time for me to realize n take ownership of my own experiences.

Nothing really happen though, but it's just small small things that happened everyday makes me
reflect on this. On the reasons y I sign on, n what I'm really looking for in life, on a personal side.
I didn't and had never gave my 100% yet, for there r just
too much other thoughts, distraction n my own doubts which makes my goal in mind less visible.
I haven't really commit myself to 100% yet, for I knew what kind of results 1 can achieve if
an individual chose to commit themselves to something.
I know myself, my past experiences, my own capabilities n my own character.
I know what I'm capable of.
But it's just I failed to acknowledge this n worry for nothing.
Not comfortable in taking the first step.

The feeling of being honorable, competent, passion in interests, love care n concern for other people.
Sticking to be right.

It's all about the amount of commitment I set myself to become a honorable Naval Officer.
How much I really do want it.
This is really a deep question to think about.
And right now I knew what is the first thing to do now.
Which is to acknowledge and accept myself for who I am
and taking the courage, to make the first step.

:)