It has been so long since I really blog too. The past few posts are just rantings.
Right now is time for a good reflection over my recent life activities already.
As time pass by, I felt more n more like an adult already.
Especially ever since after my first entry to NS.
I was happy to had done the stuffs that I wanted to do before going in and I'm happy with the results too.
- Brought n made presents for both Chow and Nigel. Hope you 2 would be contented about it.
- Pulling my fitness back. My efforts had really paid off. Thanks to my own regular trainings, my timing improved to 9:31mins on the first Cat test, and I guess I improved more than that in my IPPT. The other 4 stations I've done well too. But of cuz I'm not going to stop here and I will continue to aim for Company Best PT.
- Cleared doubts with xy. At least I know what she is thinking about and that my doubts are cleared too. The best thing to happen for this for now is to maintain the friendship between us, with no doubts and all. And yea I've managed to achieve this. Right now all I hope for u is to be happy with Victor if u 2 r really going to get together, and that he treats u well. And of cuz, remain good frens n I will always be here for u no matter wad in the future.
- Really appreciate for all the well wishes and outings just for my enlistment from all my friends and of cuz my own family.
Today was my first book out. I was so eager for this all the time before book out. But once I reached home, immediately I felt lost, dont know what to do, dont know where to go. All my frens were either busy or in NS. Until at night like maybe an hour later then can meet them.
I accompanied grandparents n sis to eat today, parents n sis tml. But in between all this, really at a lost in what to do. Guess I've really got used to packed and eventful life in the army already.
All this while sometimes at the back of my head, stuffs like my future path, my family's current financial status and etc would pop out occasionally every now n then. Sometimes I just can't help to think about it though I know I shouldn't be worrying all about this right now.
During the 2 weeks plus stay, RSAF, Navy and Army have been giving their recruitment talks and everything. There are talks about police too, which I've withdraw my contract earlier. For that point sometimes my brain really feels like cracking whenever I think about it. Things like what I'm going to do next after army. Go for degree? What degree n career to pursue of? Things like this drove me nuts. But at the end of the day I always remind myself that these stuffs shouldn't be filling up in my brain right now. The correct thing to do now is to concentrate and enjoy on my bmt. I hope that I would had a fruitful experience in not only bmt, but the rest of my military life, n of cuz strive to excel and to achieve something out of it.
I guess Cancer Zodiac Sign people really tend to have extreme moodswing. But I guess it's okay as long as I control my emotions the right way.
Although I still misses alot of people all this while, but the thing to do right now is to be independent both mentally n emotionally, to take on a this new life that is awaiting for me.
Really who knows what would all of us would become in years to come. One can sit down n wonder, or hope to be some1 that they want to be.
But for me, I've to understand 1 thing, is that
whoever we will become tomorrow are all shaped up by what are the things that I do today.
I should start to put in more faith in myself, like what I was in the past in the things that I love to do, and to have the never say die attitude.
Becuz I know that whenever I gave up something without even trying my upmost best to achieve it, the person that I let down isn't any1 but myself.
I also want to grow up to be a mature, responsible and good ethics individual & leader.
With all this in mind, I would push myself to face whatever that is to come n live life to my upmost fullest.
Good luck to me. =]
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