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Memory may be a way to hold onto the things you love, the things you are, and the things you never want to lose.
but no matter how nice it is, it is all that it is.
You can't live in your memories forever.
because if you do, you would not be able to move on, when life goes on.
if so,
you would not be able to do the stuffs that you could do.
your heart could not be able to accept new stuffs, friends and phases of lifes.
you would just find yourself rooted on the spot, not going anywhere, not knowing your direction.

beautiful memories indeed.
but time changes everything, which is inevitable.
all we can only do is to adapt and move on.

life's like a drama.
and you are just the main character.
you interact with people that comes in and out all the time.
And experienced joy, sadness, anger, disappointment with different people in different episodes with different people.
but actually all along, the focus is just you, just on you.
you still have to face your journey on your own, deep down.
whatever decisions you made, whatever actions you done, craves out your path.
lastly only to find that
whatever that belongs to you come to you in d end.
but whatever that does not will all disappeared.

if that is so then why keep hanging on to stuffs that doesn belong to me all along?
i just have to learn how to let go, and move on in life.
of course it is easier said than done.
i've not been able to do that, deep down.
im still struck in my memories.
not be able to face life truthfully,
not being able to accept new people, new stuffs, changes and new phases of life.
i'm still the emotional old me, trying to hang on to everything.
i've found that i just can't let go, not yet.
but i know i will keep trying to.
because no matter how much i missed those memories,
i still have to let go.
i can't be struck forever in my memories.
i'm often worried not being able to hold onto stuffs.
and i go for any extent to attempt to hold on to them.
yea i'm this paranoid.
but after thinking so long.
well, everything is part of life.
people comes and goes.
whatever stuffs that belongs to you, would come back to you in a big cycle.
whatever that does not belong to you, no matter how dearly you held onto them, it will still have to go anyway.
you only have to learn how to accept and cherish whatever stuffs that came into your life.
after all this is still your life. you determine how your life wanna be, and it is still your own journey to walk on, deep down isn it?

well i believed strongly that there's such thing as fate.
we might not know why such stuffs happen, etc etc.
but somehow someday everything will all make perfect sense.
so for now laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears, laugh as heartily as you can and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason.

the task that i'm gonna give myself from now.
is to try to let go, and really move on in life.
so that i could write new chapters in my life, and excel at whatever stuffs that i ought to excel.
wish me luck. =)

but i dont want you to be just another passing cloud.
but i knw it is near impossible. perhaps bah lol.

here's a song that really described and that could motivate my life now.

Breathe Again by Juwita Suwito.

Have you ever wondered how it feels when it's all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start anew
Never knowing where you're going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now i just close my eyes and say

Chorus:
I just want to breathe again
Learning to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little
Live a little more
I just want to face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if i hope a little, try a little more
i'll breathe again

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still move on
With a bit of luck, it's a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Don't want to live on life replay

Repeat:
Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn