My humble little blog

heyy heyy im back again to blog. =D
been so long i blog man wtf lol.
well this blog is neither really about daily lives, nor the latest trends or etc.
i guess tis is somewhere i can express and pen dwn my feelings.
of course
is only when i have the feel to. LOL =X

hmm it has been 3 weeks into year 3..
its like whoa~ so fast year 3 already.
and before u knew it, we would all be grads already..
time flies real fast yea? lol.
many stuffs, esp after their FO.. things are gonna be different already.
this happens every year, cos it is inevitable.
whether is for the good or for the bad or wadsoever.
times passed, events passed. people change, situations changes.
really have to adapt to changes in life..
1 of the examples are..
i cant be as close with Apex already..
cant be like always hang out with them and stuffs like tat..
its not because dont like or wad, but is just because.
i had no other reasons to hang out with them already..
still remember during the times when IC camp and FO camp periods, when ur are all freshies and knew nth,
where i can teach the guitarists from basics, and mass dance.. even during school times..
where i can come dwn everyday for ur de camp prep..
where if possible guide ur and teach ur wadever i can..
other than tat help ur or pei ur song prac whenever i can..
but then both camps has already been over.. your has already become year 2.. become seniors already le.. your has grown up le..
everything is different already..
there are no more reasons in me coming down find ur liao..
besides it is wierd and it isn good to keep chup into other year stuffs too,
after all i dont belong to ur also.
unless of course if i was ever called by ur, i would surely go find/help ur wan. =)

all i can say and hope for Apex is..
if there were to be any conflicts/problems within urselves, plz do try/continue to solve it.
plz be truthful to each other, even though truth may hurts sometimes but is always better than keeping it to urself and wearing a mask to face each other everyday..
true friends wunt be called true friends if they didn't had conflicts before.
bcos only thru such setbacks and getting up after those setbacks, then would it truly test the strength of ur friendships and increase the bond among urselves.
so don't worry if there were any conflicts, becos if there were, it only means god's test of you guys de relationship..
hope my history wunt happen again.. esp on your..
hope that none of ur will had the regret that i had too..
really hope everything goes fine for your..
2nd point is..
seriously hope history wunt repeat again.. dont pick up the bad stuffs from us..
don't learn to be yearists and kept among urselves, even among ur own cliques. we are a club, we work togt, play togt and do everything togt. there's really absolutely no point in dividing this and that.. becos we are 1 club.
i dont know if im wrong in saying this so correct me if u think im wrong..
3rd point is..
hope that whatever we might say wrong or do wrong in d past, what i can say is tat its already over and
no matter what we are still humans and we do make mistakes.. be it we realise it anot, or does the mistakes even present anot in d 1st place..
plz do not keep grudges too.. i not saying tat ur got keep.. if ur got keep grudges in ur hearts.. plz try not to keep it there too long, if no, then good..
we are still a club and after all, all of us, including u guys have the same aim, which is the interest of the camp and the club..
isn it?
really look forward to all 3 years working togt again..
you guys has became seniors already.. hope no matter wad u guys enjoyed ur past 1 yr plus stay in club. and really continue ur journey in the club.. there are much more stuffs for all of us to go thru and enjoy too.
now is the time when you all should really cherish every time and moment spent togt..
dao le year 3 or grad, jiu will knw wad is regret liao when never cherish hao hao the times u guys spent togt, or nvr do some stuffs tat u knw u ought to do but nvr do in d end..
after all who knows where would we be when all of us graduates..
isn it? =/

sometimes i know it is very difficult to differentiate what is right and what is wrong.
i know i understand.
bcos i believe many seniors, including myself face this problem til today too.
the advise tt i can give, including to myself.
is wadever stuffs we do, nvr dui bu qi zi ji de liang xing and zhe ren.
once we accomplished tat, it is good enough le.
if in d future if u guys faced any problems, or just simply need some1 to talk to.
and i mean u guys, ANYONE. be it u knw me very well or not..
im always free for ur to approach to. i can always provide ur my listening ear.
and i will always be there for your.
being there doesn mean only physically being there.. emotionally too..
even if years has passed and life has gone further and further..
if anything, just a call to me, if i can i will be there..
our friendship doesn stop at senior & junior, and it doesn stop here too.. =)
these are all the stuffs i can say, and they have been kept in my heart for too long..

this is not a post to gain attention.. not a post to try to gain respect, attention or wadsoever..
these are words meant for ur and they are my heartfelt words..
im not a person who is good in expressing myself..
so i guess this is the best way i can express myself..
of course some of my stuffs, my idealogy from this post
it may be wrong, it may be incorrect.
perhaps stuffs shouldn be the way i said..
but im sick and tired of trying to say things tat confirm 100% will be pleasant and correct..
of course you can correct me.. if im wrong in anyway or another..
all the stuffs r meant for Apex. hope ur get wad i meant.
thats all i have to say.. =)

let me just learn to forget past unhappiness..
let me just learn how to forgive n forget..
let me just learn to trust other ppl, esp them..
let me just learn to let go of myself n open up my heart..
let me just learn to cherish and enjoy every single moment with everyone in the club..
becos 1 resolution i made for myself for poly life year 3.. is never let myself regret again.. =)