just back from sch not long ago.
today EEE match, we lost 49-51.
it was a close game and was quite disappointing that we fail to clinch the win.
there are much stuffs happen thru out the match though.
and sky argued with one of the guys from EEE.
over refree mistakes, and some miscalculation of points.
it was quite frustrating lah but aiya nvm bah, these kind of things do happen.
when we play, we aren't playing as a team yet.
but well, on the bright note, we did much better than the last friendly bah.
actually abit reluctant to play pg, esp for cadc.
though i did better this time round, but still cant really control my players well.
i like to attack and score, though it feels nice to playmake too.
today morning woke up, i feeling worst than the night before.
so skip morning lessons today and went to see doctor.
it was feeling sucks man this whole day, not feeling well.
but heng nvr affect my game performance much.
sian, u didn stay on for the match, lol.


you think you have gone through alot. you just haven listen to my part of story yet. and here i am, still not giving up, not forgetting the reason that keeps me going on.

it has been 1 week since i last blog.
lols but quite alot of things happen past this week.
1. started to go for SP training ever since gotten in the selection.
2. nvr go minyi already. cos no more second team, and want to concentrate on SP team instead.
3. started maple with club peeps.

and yea major stuffs like that only bah.
and my maple character > bandit. but lvl 20 only still a rogue, lols.
was quite fun actually, skyping with them while playing maple.
at least wunt so no life haha.
but when chiong lvl alone, damn sian.
lols but well, at least there is 1 more thing i can do at home lah haha.
anyway, have to work hard for SP team.
i srsly want to get into the team.
though it is no guaranteed, and i am at a disadvantage.
but well, just play bah.
found out that playing forward is very relaxing, compare to pg.
i can attack freely or do wadever i want.
and manage to be a threat being a forward.
is it really i am more suitable to play as forward, or am i running away from being a pg?
lols srsly duno sia.
guess like wad a good friend of mine says.
just play the kind of ball i want, just play what it belongs to me de playing style.
it kindof work sia. i felt happier on the court.
i should nvr forget y i want to train/play ball sia.
so yea. just enjoy the game.

tml is friendly match against EEE.
lols see wad will happen tml bah.

today woke up at 4pm.
i missed a study session with some gaia people. so sorry about that.
intended to go training at night.
in d end, there is no training for under 19.
only got under 17 ppl training.
so ownself train for 1 hour like that, they need use full court liao.
so leave the place.
go find lawson at serangoon.
while waiting for him, been thinking alot of things.
lols abit discouraged bah of recent things.
and yea we hang out awhile, then jiu go home already.
wasted the whole day today.
sianzation. hope tml will be a better day. (:



it is so tiring to care so much.
when no 1 even cares.

today went for welfare intrium event.
it is the last comm event for intrium and yea as usual had our games
planned by the year ones. (:
it was quite fun bah, did enjoy myself with debate comm today, as i was posted to that comm.
the games r quite entertaining haha, at least to me lah.
onli that the finale was abit wierd, cause we play silent captain ball.
and we r not supposed to talk. =x
quite wierd wor, but still ok lah, everybody enjoy mah, lols. (:
and i had my face smashed with flour! zzz lols.
then we went to LT14A to have our prizes presentations and some traditonal finale games.
we seniors hid the year1s shoes/slippers.
some including myself, LOL wear their shoes and act yi ge duno. haha.
after the event, went clementi eat with the rest, before rching home arnd 12am.
sian sia, no different from training days, where i have to wake up early and sleep late LOL.
but still ok lah, it is worth it to be with them haha.
tml is another tiring day.
8am to 12pm lesson~
1pm to 5pm lesson~
7pm to 11pm bball training at minyi~
lols machaim got only 3 hours break nia for my scheldue tml zzzz.
but bo bian just hang on bah.
i must already know these consequences already since i've taken this path yea.
possibilty of second team forming is getting lesser and lesser..
I would be lieing if i dont say i am disappointed.
already 2 years i missed out on youth cup, for various stuipd reasons.
and this year is the 3rd year already.
but dont care bah, just concentrate on getting better.
my bball path doesn stop here.
life doesn stop here too.
i would just preservere till the end bah.
like what michael jordan had said
failure gives me strength, my pain gives me motivation
because of his failure then he can succeed.
and other than courage, he has one more thing, which is patience.
lols seriously i took him as a role model.
though since end of olvl i keep believing this.
but no result yet.
though i know my skills will not lose people.
yet i still duno how to apply my skills well yet.
and i haven been working really hard too, come to think of it. esp after coming to poly.
guess i've been thru enough to stop me from giving up all this.
and yea i will not give up.
cos i know i will succeed one day.
if i continue to work hard, work smart and BELIEVE.
lols i duno whether i sound like a bullshit.
saying all this lols.
but my heart really felt so, so i dont care what others say.
lols however, it will be nice to have some1 to confide to.
but perhaps, it takes alot to trust others bah.
in anyway, also have to be independent yea.
lols ok think shall stop this.
if not ppl gonna say i emo again, LOL
and yea now already past 2am le.
gonna catch some sleep for the next 4 to 5 hours.
before going back to school, lols.
again, wish me luck yea, lols.. (:

after so many days.
have finally think it through.
clear my thoughts.
i know now, which is my chosen path.
what i wanted.
and that goal will be kept fresh in my mind all the time.
dont want to tui bu qi not only those who understands, but myself too.
only i know what is within me.
give me some blessing yea.
(:

just finish changing blogskin.
eh not bad leh, i can actually learn to change blogskin myself without help of any1 haha.
but then the music ninja and archive section was put out of space sia
and now so late liao, lazy go think how to do it.
so just put it like this bah haha.
at least something new lor. if not see my old blogskin also sian lols.
and that two songs are nice. Sweet and meaningful. (:

yooooo lols. wah this few days see my blogskin see till sian alrdy haha.
want to change leh but is like so mafan and i dont even know how to do. =x
i am a noobshit in this kindda thing anyway haha.

recently have been busying with bball trainings and sch yea.
by right, out of 7 days 6 nights i will be having trainings LOL siao right.
Cadc training, Minyi training lol.
but recently failed to get in first team of minyi.
damn disappointed and bu fu lah.
this isn the first time i experience such things already, sigh.
but well, got to pray hard that there will be a second team, and work hard on my own ball bah.
Cadc training was as usual. got quite plenty of year 1s joining in haha.
but the days r still early bah. so see how first lor for the team. ^^

and damned.
i actually didn know the date of SP sch team trial, and i freaking miss itttt.
sian lah. machaim double blow sia. lols.
but hope can have the opportunity to get in their training thru some friends inside.
at least it will increase my chance of playing for SP bah.
but i guess i still have to work on every area of my ball skills and fitness.
still not good enough to me. ):
guess i have to work extra harder bah. haha.

lols recently other than bball, and 1 occasion where i go find some GAIA peeps in yewtee,
i went out with lawson quite a few times too lol.
had alot of things in mind these few days n was quite fan bah.
but heng got him 'enlighten' me lah. LOL
guess sooner or later we gonna be gay partners le bah HAHA jk.
dont blame me for spoiling ur reputation lah lawson haha. =x

and school have been total slack, or maybe total slack for me only bah. =x
lols dont really have motivation to study and yup, i still got sleep in class de habit. lols
haha but hope can really buck up on my studies bah.
i aiming for at least 3.5 by end of my poly life.
lols. thats why have to buck up soon bah.
and yea, life has been like that for me for the past weeks.
sounds packed yea? lol
but sometimes sian luh. very tired everyday, yet cant afford to be tired.
lol and yea, kinda misses the camp preps days already.
haha ok shall stop here.
updates again. (:



maybe i should just forget yea? duno bah.