Life Rocks =]

2012-01-17T00:34:00.004+08:00

Posting is out and I'm officially enrolled in OCS MIDS, meaning I'm already an navy OCT.

My signed on application as a navy officer has succeeded and tmr is the first day of my career in the SAF.

On the day of POP when we are route marching, i told Yaseen that it really doesn't feel like we r going to POP in a few hours time. It feels like just another BMT high key event and that the following Monday we would be booking in back to Tekong again.

It doesn't feel real on the thought that we are posting out to different units and life wouldn't be the same again for all of us at that point of time.

Especially me, moving on to OCT for navy officer.

Others would just simply start the next phase of their army life this week,

I'm actually starting a CAREER!

It still feels quite of a shock for the first few days of block leave,

but the feeling really began to sink in the past few days.

During the navy officer board interview, alot of people thought that the questions were difficult to answer, especially the qns : "Why Navy?"

This seems to be a very superficial qns

but in fact, it is actually a very deep and self reflecting qns.

Hmm my thoughts?

Let's put it this way.

Interviewers question: Why Navy?

My answer to the interviewers were these:

Let's say instead what kind of person would I want to be in my life?

I wanted to be some1 that is driven n passionate in life.

Some1 that people would look up n respect to as a peer, as a leader, as an individual.

I want to do n go through stuffs that are unique from everyone else,

living up to the honor of the things that I do.

I want to make an impact in people's life,

and at the same time broaden my mindset and explore different culture and stuff in the world.

I just want to keep improving myself as an individual.

I don't want a deskbound job and work my guts out all my life just for the sake of working, just for the sake of everything that I need to support in my life.

Instead, I look for a life of purpose n fulfillment,

I don't want to drag myself out of bed to work everyday.

But instead i would rather myself to look forward to everyday of my life to the things that I'm going to do.

At the same time, I'm ensured financial stability all the time.

I don't need to work towards to owning a bungalow, or a superb Lamborghini car.

I just need to let my family n I to live our lives very comfortably,

with no financial worries.

Navy comes by not of prolong planning or childhood dream.

Neither do I thought about going to the Navy in d 1st place.

Instead it serve as an opportunity.

Life is all about making tough choices.

Sometimes, we just need some directions in making our choices.

At first I don't even know what kind of career paths am I really going to take in d future.

But I know what r the stuffs to seek for in my life.

Planning, doing n leading have always been elements in my life.

Having the opportunity to go overseas every now n then to explore different cultures,

doing extraordinary stuffs that not normal people would do,

learning to be an effective leader n team player,

a career with higher than average pay in Singapore with financial stability,

opportunities for scholarships to further studies,

n having the honor of protecting the country through my job

really seems to appeal to me.

In life, I've learnt that making decisions are part n parcel of life.

Just that life is too short for any regrets.

Of course I would be lying if I were to say I wasn't afraid at all to make this decision.

But alot of things that I went through previously in life had taught me that

life is always full of surprises.

Things r ever changing.

The way things r now maybe not be the same as it is in d future.

There will always be cons n an element of risk in every decision that we make in our lives.

We shouldn't be too bothered with factors like fear of regretting, uncertainty to affect our decisions in our lives.

Becuz these negative factors doesn't really prove anything to the various options.

What's important is to think logically n follow your heart.

And to be brave enough to be different and make that decision.

We shouldn't regret if things doesn't really turn out as fine as we thought of,

for there are always reasons to our decisions at the point of time.

Hence one of the few things that I will constantly remind myself from now on..

"Leave no room for regrets."

Few hours later would be the official start of new phase of my life.

I just wanna keep this strong n positive attitude all the way.

And make my decision worthwhile

and my life a fruitful one. =]

2011-11-26T12:03:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I felt happy, contented with things and people around me.

Sometimes I felt lonely, that there is no 1 that I can really relate to, to really seek comfort to.

Some1 that I know n trust would accept me completely as who I am and always be there for me.

Sometimes I would just go with the flow, do the things that I'm doing and I want to do.

Sometimes I would feel lost, with no sense of directions, don't know where to go.

Sometimes I felt calm, sometimes I felt restless.

Maybe this is the trait of Cancer Horoscope? Drastic Mood changes and all lol.

They say 1 would grow up each time after going through something everytime.

Different friends, girls walk in and out of your life everytime.

Whenever and whatever things that happens or come your way, it is just a matter of how u take it.

They often say I would definitely able to have a gf if I really wanted to.

Yea I know.

But it only apply to having a gf for the sake of having a gf.

It is just that whenever I got serious into a girl, she would just be sniffed off by some1 eventually which I don't know why.

But oh well, maybe I just haven't met the right girl yet.

And oh yea, I've got a problem with letting go too.

Maybe that is the reason y I still can't move on from this.

Let time heal everything.

For now I just want to learn to be independent, emotionally and mentally.

I want to take things that come my way in my life independently, challenging myself to take it.

And to be a better person each time.

I just wanna give my best in whatever things I do, and never to let myself down.

Although the path ahead looks misty and uncertain

But I'm ready for the future.

Let's go Lester!

2011-11-25T23:44:00.002+08:00

Hmmm time flies and I've already completed my first 2 n a half week of confinements in the army already.

It has been so long since I really blog too. The past few posts are just rantings.

Right now is time for a good reflection over my recent life activities already.

As time pass by, I felt more n more like an adult already.

Especially ever since after my first entry to NS.

I was happy to had done the stuffs that I wanted to do before going in and I'm happy with the results too.

- Brought n made presents for both Chow and Nigel. Hope you 2 would be contented about it.

- Pulling my fitness back. My efforts had really paid off. Thanks to my own regular trainings, my timing improved to 9:31mins on the first Cat test, and I guess I improved more than that in my IPPT. The other 4 stations I've done well too. But of cuz I'm not going to stop here and I will continue to aim for Company Best PT.

- Cleared doubts with xy. At least I know what she is thinking about and that my doubts are cleared too. The best thing to happen for this for now is to maintain the friendship between us, with no doubts and all. And yea I've managed to achieve this. Right now all I hope for u is to be happy with Victor if u 2 r really going to get together, and that he treats u well. And of cuz, remain good frens n I will always be here for u no matter wad in the future.

- Really appreciate for all the well wishes and outings just for my enlistment from all my friends and of cuz my own family.

Today was my first book out. I was so eager for this all the time before book out. But once I reached home, immediately I felt lost, dont know what to do, dont know where to go. All my frens were either busy or in NS. Until at night like maybe an hour later then can meet them.

I accompanied grandparents n sis to eat today, parents n sis tml. But in between all this, really at a lost in what to do. Guess I've really got used to packed and eventful life in the army already.

All this while sometimes at the back of my head, stuffs like my future path, my family's current financial status and etc would pop out occasionally every now n then. Sometimes I just can't help to think about it though I know I shouldn't be worrying all about this right now.

During the 2 weeks plus stay, RSAF, Navy and Army have been giving their recruitment talks and everything. There are talks about police too, which I've withdraw my contract earlier. For that point sometimes my brain really feels like cracking whenever I think about it. Things like what I'm going to do next after army. Go for degree? What degree n career to pursue of? Things like this drove me nuts. But at the end of the day I always remind myself that these stuffs shouldn't be filling up in my brain right now. The correct thing to do now is to concentrate and enjoy on my bmt. I hope that I would had a fruitful experience in not only bmt, but the rest of my military life, n of cuz strive to excel and to achieve something out of it.

I guess Cancer Zodiac Sign people really tend to have extreme moodswing. But I guess it's okay as long as I control my emotions the right way.

Although I still misses alot of people all this while, but the thing to do right now is to be independent both mentally n emotionally, to take on a this new life that is awaiting for me.

Really who knows what would all of us would become in years to come. One can sit down n wonder, or hope to be some1 that they want to be.

But for me, I've to understand 1 thing, is that

whoever we will become tomorrow are all shaped up by what are the things that I do today.

I should start to put in more faith in myself, like what I was in the past in the things that I love to do, and to have the never say die attitude.

Becuz I know that whenever I gave up something without even trying my upmost best to achieve it, the person that I let down isn't any1 but myself.

I also want to grow up to be a mature, responsible and good ethics individual & leader.

With all this in mind, I would push myself to face whatever that is to come n live life to my upmost fullest.

Good luck to me. =]

2011-10-08T05:00:00.002+08:00

I nvr meant for this to develop in any other way in the first place.
And I knew the consequences if I got close with you again.
And I already told myself that I just wanna be the person to be there for you only, that's all.
Actually I should be glad that u still take me for a very good fren after all.
Yup and of coz, I should be happy for you.
Hope you can find a better bf than mingyong, eh?
Of coz I would be lieing if I said I'm not affected.
But oh well, if it ain't meant to be, it won't be.
Should be happy for you, instead of self pity and jealous about it.
Yup I would get over it and move on after some time,
but of coz cont to be there for you as a fren,
and yea happy for you too. =]

2011-09-21T02:56:00.002+08:00

Never wallow in misery.
These are the things that I am going to do before NS/Police.

1.) Set my body clock straight. Try to wake up earlier and sleep earlier.
2.) Pack my room. Set things straight and neat. Just like starting things over again.
3.) At least exercise for every 2 days. Keep a healthy lifestyle, build up body and clear my mind.
4.) Take care of my personal hygiene. Better cure for my skin. More comfortable too.
5.) Stop texting xy. She doesn't really care as much as you do. So stop wasting your time.
6.) Find something useful to do. Keep your brain working at all times. So that your brain won't slow down and you will do more meaningful things in your life.
7.) Last but not least, be contented and appreciative with what I have at any moment.
This is the most important thing.

Alright I'm not going to be bothered by anything deemed unnecessary.
No point making my life miserable for nothing.
Should start to recognise what and who is more important to cherish and go after in life.
And learn how to be strong and independent.
Be emotionally and mentally ready for NS/Police.

2011-08-26T04:15:00.003+08:00

Life has been great these few months.
Alot of things happened and changed.
Knew quite a few good friends from work and we cliqued quite well.
Have going out with them and some usual ppl like kenneth zwei lionel.
Had fun working with them and late night activites.
Have been going out with sec sch frens too. Been so long since I've been going out with them for quite awhile.
Had our fun and our sharing sessions. It's great to have frens like them. Especially sec sch frens that been so long nvr contact. It's great to know that they are still by my side after all this while.

Anyway, I've made 1 of the most important decision in my life.
Which is to sign on to be a police officer.
I've been feeling lost all this while. Dk what to do in the future and have no purpose in life.
I don't wanna be struck trying to earn more money all the time in my life.
I don't wanna just trying to make ends meet in every month of my life.
I don't wanna work or do anything just because I have to.
I seek for a life of purpose and fufillment.
I wished to be a person that others can respect and look up to.
Instead of being just another guy who is always self-consicous and always seek for things that benefits himself.
I prefer ppl around me to respect n love me for who i am, then having ppl around me just because of certain materialistics or ambitious reasons.
On top of my excellence and interest in inferences, psychology, and analysing activites.
And my sporty and outgoing personality.
I've decided to become a police officer.
10 years down the road when my peers are working their ass off everyday to earn more money, finishing every task that they are given just because of money,
the things that i do everyday carries a noble reason behind it.
Is like comparing an insurance agent with police officer.
For every appointment that an insurance agent clinched everyday, it is definitely less satisfactory than every criminal case that a police officer solved, or every life that a police officer saved everyday.
This reason alone could push me through my career in the future.
Hope that I could really get accepted into the police force and work hard and hope that I would be offered a degree sponsorship position in the next few years.
So that I would be set for life.
I was so glad to finally find some directions in life.
Hope that no matter what happens in the future, I would be strong enough to weather the bad times, humble enough to enjoy the good times, improving myself all the time and gain satisfaction from this job.
Wished me good luck! ;D

Been going out with xy this few months too. Never expected that I would ever go out or really get close to her again after MY incident.
She was 1 of those gals that i could really relate to, n it was great having her back by my side as a friend for now again.
Remembered those MY times when I wanted to talk to her when she was online.
But is either I don't have the guts to talk to her,
or I just don't know what to say to her.
Wanted to care and concern her, but also dk where to start. Start le also like no help.
Sometimes even awkward too.
Been so long since had a really nice conversation with her.
And the times that I can't stop thinking about her, but force myself not to think, as I thought it was not worth it, and that I shouldn't carry on like this.
Tried to go out with or jio different girls, but the feelings ain't the same.
It never work out.
Sometimes even after 1 year of her relationship with MY, I thought I've forgotten about her comepletely then.
But whenever I see her, i still tend to feel soft about her.
But never really had a good conversation between us.

Seriously never thought that a simple bday card would cut the communication barrier between us all along.
I really appreciate the effort.
It shows that you valued me at least as a friend after all.
The incident has been a regret in my life, but at least the scar is healed up now.
Right now. I just wanna be the person there for her. Thats all, at least for now.
Just want to make her happy, just want to be there.

But there is 1 thing that is troubling me right now.
I dk what I should do.
At the start, I knew that the feeling would come back again.
But I just try not to.
But I guess the feeling is still there after all these years after all.
I'm nt the kind of typical guys, who has their own personal agendas when getting close to her.
Those typical guys who just wanted to get her.
I just wanna be the person to be there in her life.
I never intend to go any further, for now.
Just wanna enjoy her companion, and have a fun time togt.

However, the sudden appearance of this guy makes me think about the past mistakes I made in my life.
I can't let same stuffs of things happen to me in relationships over and over again.
I can't regret not telling some1 I had feelings for about my feelings.
I can't just let things happen, and eventually blame myself for this and that.

For now, I just wanna let her know of my feelings for her, so that I would not repeat my past mistakes again.
And not to regret in the future.
At least if she really were to be togt with some1 else in d future, I won't regret not telling her bout my feelings beforehand, and start thinking bout different possiblities and start regretting,
just like before.
At least I knew by then clearly about her decision.
But no matter what, I just wanna be the person to be there for her.
However, I really don't wish to give her any pressure on that.
I don't meant anything more than that.
There are too many guys who confessed to her.
Which gave her too much pressure.
I don't intend to go any further than a friend for now.
I don't wanna spoil my relationship with her.
I just wanna let her know, that's all.
After that, continue being her companion.
After all, also going in police soon.
In short, really just wanna to be there for her in her life.
Other stuffs jiu really see fate liao le.
That's all.
The problem now.
Is how to pluck out my courage to tell her. =/
But no matter what, 1 day I must really show some balls and tell her about this.
So that I won't regret anymore.

2011-07-15T03:53:00.004+08:00

I thought I meant nothing to you.
I thought I'm just 1 of the many guys that chased after you and who
doesn't really matter anything to you.
I felt sad, disappointed about you having 2 bfs togt in such a short time.
But all these things are in the past
Because today I knew that I'm just not a normal Tom Dick Harry.
And I knew that I'm some1 you truly appreciate.
I really felt touched by these, really so.
It kind of remove the scar I had for the past few years,
and made me believe there are still positive things to look forward to in relationship.
And of course, regain back my total trust in you as a friend.
My heart is touched and I really appreciate this.
From today onwards, though I've been positive all along, but this makes me more positive than ever already.
I guess from today onwards,
I will be re-reading your card every single night before I sleep for quite awhile.
Thanks alot, from the bottom of my heart.. =)

2011-05-29T06:32:00.003+08:00

It's 6:32am in the morning, and I can't get to sleep yet.
Actually is don't feel like sleeping lol.
As I'm typing this post right now, kenneth that gay is right behind me sleeping on my damn bed.
Lol really pig. Seriously I have to tell my mum that I'm not gay. -.-
As we were playing our own games just now, I happen to thought of this and I told him everything about it.
I know what and how I'm supposed to react.
I know I should just suck it up and move on.
But like how I deal with such matters in the past, I always let myself emo for quite awhile, maybe for the night.
Before next day start when I don't really think of it anymore.
Not really entirely though, but enough to keep myself away from thinking about this all the time and letting this bullshit affect my life.
Because it is way too stupid to let it affect my life.
It can't be a coincidence, isn't it?
Is god trying to tell me something?
Every time, about the same sort of stuffs happen.
Got chance, high chance, get close, get to know, deciding whether should or not, decided already
Suddenly always will bomb this kinda thing out last minute when I'm really into it.
Is either suddenly got this friend who has the same target as me, or some1 just suddenly snatch away then.
I'm always always, 1 step slower.
Always always, caught in situation of awkwardness between friends who targeted the same girl.
Where u really don't know what to do.
Follow your feelings and take it slow? Or just go for it.
But if go for it, afraid that will hurt friendship, then don't dare to do anything.
It is so much of a joke that I could feel guilty spending time alone with that girl, cuz of my fren, when actually they r togt, he don't feel guilty at all.
Is the nice, gentleman, spontaneous guy too difficult too "nice" to be?
I don't understand why I'm always caught in situations like this, and ended up being the sad party, having to tell the other guy instead not to be guilty and let's continue to be good friends.
I really don't understand this logic. Seriously speaking.
In the years later, I really don't want to attend all my friends wedding, with all their wives being girls that I like before and for some reason 1 way or the other, from got chance togt become gf of good friend, n in d end wives of my friends.
Seriously this sucks, really sucks.
It sucks when you have to act as if it doesn't really bother you to see them holding hands side by side together when you go out as a group outing when you actually do.
It sucks full time.
I'm sick of hearing "I am a nice guy" or hmm "Sorry for this" this kinda things here.
If the other party is some1 I don't really don't know, like that time Ming Yong, at least I can complain to friends.
At least I can don't feel guilty when I'm with the girl alone, and don't need to scare of hurting friendship and all the other craps.
And don't need to feel upset when I see the girl with the bf.
Seriously I don't understand..
I know I'm just complaining to myself right now, just like a wimp.
But I just only wanna rant it all out.
So that I will feel better and I can forget about it.

2011-05-15T22:45:00.002+08:00

15 May 2011.

Wow 2 n a half months have past since I last officially went to school as a student.
For whole of March, have been working non-stop.
Flex, IT show, Wild Oats.
Think my total pay got reach around $1300.
End of March comes the crazy month, April.
Every week of April except for last week, also got 1 major event.
1st Week (Continued from March): FO Camp
2nd Week: Fusion Camp
3rd Week: Annual Recept Chalet
4th Week: Bangkok Trip
Other then these activities, still got work, if not poker.
Is like Wow.
It has been a crazy month for me.
But sadly, all my earnings from March has contributed to these activities in April.
So now got no much saving.. ):

After all these weeks, the following weeks have been crazy also.
Chiong work at Wild Oats for 2 weeks, like almost everyday.
Only until this week onwards, is more free for me, with 2 shifts a week.
New Oats is opening in June.
Hope I could get more working slots there.
And also, hope that it would be fun and be a good experience too.
2 more jobs are available in June too.
IT fair and flex again.
Hope to aim for $1300 again.. haha

After June, I would be left with 4 months plus to NS..
In fact is 5 months plus from now..
Really don't know if it is a waste of time or not.
So long then go in,
by then already most of the guys go in. left me alone.
Hope I won't get bored to death for all these months.

Well, at least I have a driving license to complete before NS..
At least there is another added thing to do. =/
Want to faster chiong for the license, so have 1 less thing to think about.
Other than that, really have to slowly build up my physical,
get myself stronger.. to prepare for army.

There is a lot of things going through my head now..
Planning what other things to do for the next hours, next few days, next few months.
I don't want my holidays to spent purely on working.
I just want to learn how to take my life independently and responsibly.
Do, learn and explore different things.
Spend more time with friends and family.
Getting used to be independent.

Seriously I think I am very messed up.
Over this matter.
I don't know why I always get into situations like these..
I should really control myself and forget about this..
Yea, I admit, this bother me badly.
I just hope to get over this and erase all the awkwardness..
I should perk up and concentrate on my life.. instead of thinking about all these nonsense..

Sometimes, I just wished for some1 to talk to, some1 who can understand and accept..
Some1 to remind me about what's right and wrong.
Right now, I just need some directions.

2011-03-16T03:02:00.002+08:00

Chiong work a few days after last paper.
for like 10 consecutive days?
lol right now the feeling then sets in.
i've already graduate, finally after 3 years.
time flies so fast that another phase of my life has went by already.
somehow, it makes me feel somewhat more mature, more sensible.
actually, felt older already.
after the things that went thru, i guess it makes me a better person.
right now, i can only embrace everyday of my life right now, before the end of FO
Which marks the end of our stint in CADC.
Feelings unexplainable, can't be described in words.

2011-02-22T23:34:00.002+08:00

I look for the sense of fulfillment within myself everyday, so that when the day is over and it is time to sleep, I feel contented. =)

2011-01-31T15:15:00.002+08:00

Learn to be independent.
Do the things I feel like doing.
Go to the places I feel like going.
Learning to derive joy from the things I do.
Gradually find out the things that you really like to do.
Find out the feeling that you like to keep.
Appreciating whatever you have right now.
Making out the various, big and small choices of your life.
To crave out a path for oneself.
To be able to do all these independently, without the need of company from others.
Only then you can lead the life of your own.
Where you find your true self, your true desires, your true passion.
And decide which are the most important things to you.

Graduation is nearing and every single day.
Going 20 soon.
I'm no longer young anymore.
I'm going to be a young adult.
It is time to be independent.
To know what I really want in life.
Just like the times when i knew that,
Basketball is the 1 & only thing I want to strive for in my life
Where I work hard to overcome all obstacles for my passion, no matter how hard it seems to be,
No matter how people look at me,
I still see the single goal right in my mind.
Although I had lost that passion already for the past few years,
I'm going to find a new 1 in the next few years.
Months hopefully?
When I found it, it would be like the same before.
Striving for the passion of my life.
I'm not going to be as impatient as before.
As lost as before.
For I'm going to learn how to lead my life properly first,
before anything else comes in.
And the first step,
Is to learn to be truly independent.
Good luck to me. ;D

2011-01-03T03:33:00.002+08:00

These are the stuffs that I am going to aim for in 2011.

Before NS:
Hope can pass all the relevant tests n interviews to get to pilot vocation.
Finish all my projects and modules decently at least.
Do my best for whatever that i can do for club and the upcoming/last FO with CADC.
2.4km timing of at least 9min 30sec consistent.
At least 15 reps of pull-ups at one go and consistent.
Learn how to swim completely and consistently.
Nice body shape.
Get driving license.
Learn something new and interesting.
Earn more money for personal expenses, and buy a desktop home for everyone to use.

During NS:
IPPT gold.
Get into OCS.
Get into pilot vocation and go all the way to be a pilot.

Jiayou to me!! ;D

2011-01-01T02:35:00.007+08:00

It is the 1st day of the new year 2011.
Initially thought I will be spending my new year eve alone yesterday.
But in d end Oscar jio out go eat dinner with a few other friends.
Met and went to eat Astons in lavender before Nick and QY went off and the few of us head to vivo to slack.
After that the few of us saw fireworks, kenneth came and shortly after we went back.
Chatted with him with some alcohol brought from 7eleven then head straight to my house.
Talk about many stuffs in the past til now.
Time just passed to fast for all of us. Just in a blink of an eye, life in poly is going to end for us in a few more months time.
Somehow someway just feel that it is too tiring to do some stuffs, like wad every1 would do when they were year 1 or year 2. Just feel that the few close and 知心 friends are all that really matters already in d end. After all, we have all really gone thru alot of stuffs for the past years in poly already.
The progression of 1 year from 2010 to 2011, brings me closer to the fact that we are all going to graduate and gonna leave club already.
Sometimes it is hard to accept, but still have to accept this.
Just wish to cherish everything that i have now, and peacefully walk finish the rest of my poly life with my friends.

让时间治好所有以前的悲伤, 藏好美好的时光, 珍惜现在所有的一切, 抬起头来不停的望前走..
From 2011 onwards, I would carry this mentality and to,
- Work hard towards and acheive whatever that I want to acheive
- Cherishing what ever that I have.
- Facing and making the most of my life everyday.

And most importantly, learn to stay strong and be contented. =)

2010-12-16T02:33:00.003+08:00

1st year.. Doing, Choosing, Sacrificing, Confusing, Disappointing
2nd year.. Giving, Teaching, Choosing, Sacrificing, Guiding, Despair, Disappointing, Helpless
3rd year.. Letting Go, Healing, Cherishing, Wondering.
Graduation.. Moving On.

What matters in the ultimate end, is the fruitful experience, happy memories and the people that would still remain by your side.

We can't stop the clock from ticking, because time waits for no man.
Time flies.
Never regretted any actions, be it correct or wrong to the public's eye.
For with every action that one takes, there is always a reason.

whatever that belongs to you, comes back to you in d long run. whatever that does not, just treat it as a beautiful memory. =)

2010-11-30T22:21:00.002+08:00

Smile cause there are many things we can smile at;
Be Happy cause that's what keeps our day going easier;
Forgive cause grudges drain our energy;
Don't forget cause history moulds our future;
Open your heart cause this makes it easier for people to enter your life;
Be optimistic cause things happen for a reason;
Accept the reality cause it makes life easier for us to cope;
Believe in fate cause some things are fated to be in that way for a reason;
Treasure and Love cause it is something close to our heart;
Hope cause in life we need some things to motivate us;
Reminisce cause great memories are like happy pills to blue days;
Value cause most things are impermanent;
Be strong cause there are many challenges up ahead for us to conquer;
Know your wants cause this will prevent us from falling into illusions which can be a trap;
Be true to yourself cause it's easier to be ourselves this way;
Learn to let go cause that's how we move forward;
No regrets to the decision made now cause life is simply too short to live in remorse and lastly
Accept the changes occurring cause "change" is something that doesn't change in life.

Sometimes, you feel ready to do something, to move on, to live. Sometimes you still lose the courage to face your life and everything. I'm confused, by the things around me, and by myself. Everything seems so pointless.
Nobody would ever understand.
I totally got no idea how my mood can change so abruptly from time to time.

I just need a break sometimes..
from everyday's life
to fuck care about everything else that is to be care about.
and just emo it out.
I just need some courage.
Some courage to go on.

2010-11-02T00:18:00.002+08:00

time really do flies. it has been the 3rd week of the last semester of poly for me.
everyday when i make my way to dover mrt, i would take a mental note to myself, that it is a reduction of a day from the remaining days i had in poly.
felt kinda sad actually, having to leave poly, or rather cadc soon.
but at the same time, kinda look forward to life after poly, which the next phrase is ns.
a new life, new begining then. it feels just like leaving secondary school for poly back then.
half of me wanted to remain at my spot, yet on the other hand wanted to move on too.
who knows how many friends i made in poly i could keep close contact with when all of us grad.
well, perhaps too much twist n turns happened for me in my life in poly already.
lookin way back, from freshmens to year 3, there were many ups n downs moments.
made many sacrifices, fu chu so much for certain stuffs, crossed many problems n hurdles.
but it was kinda disappointing on how everything ended up now.
so disappointing that even if i were to look at my batch's contact list right now, there weren't anybody that i thought i could had heart to heart talk, people that i really trust n hav a sense of belonging to.
when by right, i should have alot of them.
i kept telling myself to move on, move on and move on. but yet no matter how much i changed thruout the months, i still couldn't do it, deep down.
looking at secondary school frens, some of them still meet up regularly for stuffs etc. some of them still remain as zhi xing peng you, etc.
i felt guilty to my sec sch mates, esp the ones that i were used to be very closed with.
it just feels awkard to ask them out, or even talk to them.
even if were to meet up, it doesn't felt the same again.
i felt weak, lost at times. no direction, no assurance.
that is why i looked forward to life after poly, to experience a new begining, make more new friends, acheive as much as i could, create as much good memories as i could.
sometimes it feels exciting to think about that, but sometimes otherwise.
i guess at least several years down the road, i would not be able to let go of the attachment i got with club, and the friends i made in club.

everyday when i woke up, i told myself this.
it is a new day, a new begining again.
the events yesterday were unchangeable, the future is unpredictable.
so today, you only face today.
no matter how significance u tot of today, it is still a day.
make it good, not regreting the decisions i made, no matter how small or how big the matter is.
just wanted to make the most of the days left in poly.
it can be as simple as slackin arnd with frens, in club or outside, going to lessons, cramping in the damn packed mrt, going to lunch with mates, dotaing, bballing, jogging, play guitar, striving for bball intercons, teaching the juniors wadever i could, etc....
bcos once we grad, it will never be the same again.
so just cherish every moment of poly life.
so that i could leave poly life contently, with no regrets.

2010-09-19T19:58:00.002+08:00

quite much of stuffs happen at home recently..
well, it has been years.
maybe it has already reached the limit.

all that i can do is to lessen the burden on family.
working more often to gain extra cash.
try to keep sis company n happy.
keeping my temper cooly.
all i can hope for
is that nth will happen in d end.
that somehow someway, things will work out by itself.
she is right.. no 1 knows anything about me at home.
n we were just ourselves indivdually all these years..

it has been years..
it is so tiring, to be the middleman all tis while.
i must learn how to be contented and cherish the things i have.
i dk wad holds the future for us.
hope that everything would turn out fine in d end.
and that whatever that is suspected to be true would turn out to be untrue in d end..

choices & decisions

2010-09-03T04:04:00.002+08:00

hey i'm back to revive my blog again. =)

having holidays now but the holidays r meant to study. =.=
found new work at wild oats, introduced by edmund and co.
working there with lionel and howai.
well better working envrionment i guess, much more relax than ritz carlton.
somemore got ren shi de ren work togt, the boss quite friendly also.
so still not bad ^^
but well work and exam gonna crash togt in the next few weeks =.=
dont know how i gonna handle, plus it is definitely going to eat into my studying time.
if can't find a replacement, gonna become ironman soon. T.T

but it is really no life nowadays..
bu shi work jiu shi dota or study. hai it's really a different lifestyle compared to last time.
didn't played bball for ages..
played ytd for a few games. the feeling is like WOW.
well, it really did make me feel more energetic and alive again after playing it. =)
i guess i truly enjoy bball. and it feels so relax playing it.

sometimes looking at the sch team, youth cup, bball yog.
it really makes me wonder.. wad if i chose bball over club, during both occasion, same time frame on year 1 n 2.. where would i be? how would my life be like. would i be enjoying myself everyday again on the court..? where i placed my priority, my heart n soul on basketball, like before?
sometimes, i thought to myself.. many ifs and possibilites..
i could be there and reached my goal of playing youth cup, sch team etc.
i could be striving for my passion now.. if i chose bball then.. even if it is on the 2nd occasion, it might be still possible..
one of the stuffs that really made me down in bball, is the time when we lost all the matches of the intercons last year, representing cadc..
I've put in so much effort into the team.. the rest of the team members also..
did training and made effort.. we were hot favouites then..
but ended up in stupid mistakes and losses. what a shame of me.. can't be able to control my team well and lead to victory as point guard.
some of the guys, esp like the year ones then, really look up to me.
what i felt then is disappointment to myself, n a greater disappointment to the others.
I thought giving up the choice of competitive bball then for club, i could divert my passion into cadc bball instead..
but even this i also failed badly..
when the chance arrive at my footstep to go for minyi training for the 2nd time..
i made the same choice in d end.. i thought i could get over it but the feeling still lingers today.

I used to ponder, whether did i really regret over my decisions, my choices over the past 2 n a half years, making the choices at the expense of many stuffs that were very very dear to me.
during tougher times.., i thought to myself stuffs like, y am i here? y am i putting in so much effort while the rest doesn't even give a damn? etc etc. i used to hate alot, bcoz of some stuffs that i can't change, some stuffs that i've completely don't have any power/ways to influence or solve stuffs.
but right now. i can clearly say that i wun't regret my choices and the decisions that i made over the past 2 years, joining club etc.
recollecting the events, the faces, laughters, jokes, sharing sessions, times togt. no matter which year. it then made me feel that my decision is worthwhile.

life is like that. you always have to make choices. no matter what, you have to give up something to obtain the other thing. it is a matter of give n take, comes and goes, with every possible choices. and perhaps, we would nvr be satisfied, bcoz we yearned for the other path that we didn't make our choice on. or mayb for some ppl, bcoz of tough times, regreted and wanted to go the other path.
Though some things, doesn't ended up perfectly the way we want it to be, but still it is the imperfection which made it perfect right?
Though some things, doesn't last long or forever, what matters is cheng jing yong you.
so right now, i've gained another major step in my growth in my poly years.
I was not in a dilema like before already, over choices that i had to make, n questioning myself over the decisions i made. bcoz i've clearly seen n knew what i wanted the past 2 n a half years.. and of course, i've already made another huge step, in letting go of stuffs already.
right now at least i know, that i've began to move on in life.
no matter how many mistakes i made, over my choices and stuffs in d future, i would not regret like before, bcoz i'm the one who made the decisions, n i made them for a reason.
i can only look forward, not backward.
only then i can learn not to regret in life.

all these r the progress tt i've made.
over stuffs that troubled me for very long.
and of course, some people used to say.
you become stronger after rising from every fall.
and right now, i am as strong as ever. =)

A new me. =)

2010-07-21T00:40:00.002+08:00

its like whoaaaaa, it has been ages since i blogged.
time flew n it is already july.
n of course, had already turned 19.
i am thankful for those that remembered my bday
and i really appreciate the wishes n celebration i was given. =)

1 year has past since my last bday, n perhaps this is just another new chapter of life.
it has been pretty good so far.. i guess haha. given that
i've already started driving lessons.
apart from getting real sick over the last few days. =.= LOL
and most imptly, i've already getting started in moving on, finally letting go some of the stuffs that i've kept so long in my heart already. everything seems better
and start to bi jiao kan de kai le.
hope this goes on n i would be able to move on in life.

n of course, every bday boy gets to make his own wish/resolution right?
hah i've already made mine n i hope things really goes that way.
n of cuz i will work towards it.
ok til here. blog next time.

2010-06-19T01:49:00.002+08:00

after so much.. sometimes i wonder..
am i on the right path?
am i doing the correct thing?
am i believing in the correct thing?

if all above is yes.
then it goes.
is everything worthwhile?

i can only feel helpless time and again.
look and cant do much.
did beyond wad i can do already.
yet the result is the same.
yet the cycle continues...
ending up in tears each time..
who can understand?

i wish for a god.
wish for some1 to tel me wad is the correct thing to do.
wad i could do to change the present.
i wish for a guaranteed way to solve this.
if god is able to guide me and ensure a guaranteed way.
even if it involves any sacrifices.
i would still do it...
because only this way,
there can be a change..
but that is only if.
if only.
some1 please guide me out of this..

2010-05-29T03:07:00.005+08:00

Memory may be a way to hold onto the things you love, the things you are, and the things you never want to lose.
but no matter how nice it is, it is all that it is.
You can't live in your memories forever.
because if you do, you would not be able to move on, when life goes on.
if so,
you would not be able to do the stuffs that you could do.
your heart could not be able to accept new stuffs, friends and phases of lifes.
you would just find yourself rooted on the spot, not going anywhere, not knowing your direction.

beautiful memories indeed.
but time changes everything, which is inevitable.
all we can only do is to adapt and move on.

life's like a drama.
and you are just the main character.
you interact with people that comes in and out all the time.
And experienced joy, sadness, anger, disappointment with different people in different episodes with different people.
but actually all along, the focus is just you, just on you.
you still have to face your journey on your own, deep down.
whatever decisions you made, whatever actions you done, craves out your path.
lastly only to find that
whatever that belongs to you come to you in d end.
but whatever that does not will all disappeared.

if that is so then why keep hanging on to stuffs that doesn belong to me all along?
i just have to learn how to let go, and move on in life.
of course it is easier said than done.
i've not been able to do that, deep down.
im still struck in my memories.
not be able to face life truthfully,
not being able to accept new people, new stuffs, changes and new phases of life.
i'm still the emotional old me, trying to hang on to everything.
i've found that i just can't let go, not yet.
but i know i will keep trying to.
because no matter how much i missed those memories,
i still have to let go.
i can't be struck forever in my memories.
i'm often worried not being able to hold onto stuffs.
and i go for any extent to attempt to hold on to them.
yea i'm this paranoid.
but after thinking so long.
well, everything is part of life.
people comes and goes.
whatever stuffs that belongs to you, would come back to you in a big cycle.
whatever that does not belong to you, no matter how dearly you held onto them, it will still have to go anyway.
you only have to learn how to accept and cherish whatever stuffs that came into your life.
after all this is still your life. you determine how your life wanna be, and it is still your own journey to walk on, deep down isn it?

well i believed strongly that there's such thing as fate.
we might not know why such stuffs happen, etc etc.
but somehow someday everything will all make perfect sense.
so for now laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears, laugh as heartily as you can and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason.

the task that i'm gonna give myself from now.
is to try to let go, and really move on in life.
so that i could write new chapters in my life, and excel at whatever stuffs that i ought to excel.
wish me luck. =)

but i dont want you to be just another passing cloud.
but i knw it is near impossible. perhaps bah lol.

here's a song that really described and that could motivate my life now.

Breathe Again by Juwita Suwito.

Have you ever wondered how it feels when it's all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start anew
Never knowing where you're going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now i just close my eyes and say

Chorus:
I just want to breathe again
Learning to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little
Live a little more
I just want to face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if i hope a little, try a little more
i'll breathe again

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still move on
With a bit of luck, it's a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Don't want to live on life replay

Repeat:
Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn

2010-05-05T00:10:00.003+08:00

heyy heyy im back again to blog. =D
been so long i blog man wtf lol.
well this blog is neither really about daily lives, nor the latest trends or etc.
i guess tis is somewhere i can express and pen dwn my feelings.
of course
is only when i have the feel to. LOL =X

hmm it has been 3 weeks into year 3..
its like whoa~ so fast year 3 already.
and before u knew it, we would all be grads already..
time flies real fast yea? lol.
many stuffs, esp after their FO.. things are gonna be different already.
this happens every year, cos it is inevitable.
whether is for the good or for the bad or wadsoever.
times passed, events passed. people change, situations changes.
really have to adapt to changes in life..
1 of the examples are..
i cant be as close with Apex already..
cant be like always hang out with them and stuffs like tat..
its not because dont like or wad, but is just because.
i had no other reasons to hang out with them already..
still remember during the times when IC camp and FO camp periods, when ur are all freshies and knew nth,
where i can teach the guitarists from basics, and mass dance.. even during school times..
where i can come dwn everyday for ur de camp prep..
where if possible guide ur and teach ur wadever i can..
other than tat help ur or pei ur song prac whenever i can..
but then both camps has already been over.. your has already become year 2.. become seniors already le.. your has grown up le..
everything is different already..
there are no more reasons in me coming down find ur liao..
besides it is wierd and it isn good to keep chup into other year stuffs too,
after all i dont belong to ur also.
unless of course if i was ever called by ur, i would surely go find/help ur wan. =)

all i can say and hope for Apex is..
if there were to be any conflicts/problems within urselves, plz do try/continue to solve it.
plz be truthful to each other, even though truth may hurts sometimes but is always better than keeping it to urself and wearing a mask to face each other everyday..
true friends wunt be called true friends if they didn't had conflicts before.
bcos only thru such setbacks and getting up after those setbacks, then would it truly test the strength of ur friendships and increase the bond among urselves.
so don't worry if there were any conflicts, becos if there were, it only means god's test of you guys de relationship..
hope my history wunt happen again.. esp on your..
hope that none of ur will had the regret that i had too..
really hope everything goes fine for your..
2nd point is..
seriously hope history wunt repeat again.. dont pick up the bad stuffs from us..
don't learn to be yearists and kept among urselves, even among ur own cliques. we are a club, we work togt, play togt and do everything togt. there's really absolutely no point in dividing this and that.. becos we are 1 club.
i dont know if im wrong in saying this so correct me if u think im wrong..
3rd point is..
hope that whatever we might say wrong or do wrong in d past, what i can say is tat its already over and
no matter what we are still humans and we do make mistakes.. be it we realise it anot, or does the mistakes even present anot in d 1st place..
plz do not keep grudges too.. i not saying tat ur got keep.. if ur got keep grudges in ur hearts.. plz try not to keep it there too long, if no, then good..
we are still a club and after all, all of us, including u guys have the same aim, which is the interest of the camp and the club..
isn it?
really look forward to all 3 years working togt again..
you guys has became seniors already.. hope no matter wad u guys enjoyed ur past 1 yr plus stay in club. and really continue ur journey in the club.. there are much more stuffs for all of us to go thru and enjoy too.
now is the time when you all should really cherish every time and moment spent togt..
dao le year 3 or grad, jiu will knw wad is regret liao when never cherish hao hao the times u guys spent togt, or nvr do some stuffs tat u knw u ought to do but nvr do in d end..
after all who knows where would we be when all of us graduates..
isn it? =/

sometimes i know it is very difficult to differentiate what is right and what is wrong.
i know i understand.
bcos i believe many seniors, including myself face this problem til today too.
the advise tt i can give, including to myself.
is wadever stuffs we do, nvr dui bu qi zi ji de liang xing and zhe ren.
once we accomplished tat, it is good enough le.
if in d future if u guys faced any problems, or just simply need some1 to talk to.
and i mean u guys, ANYONE. be it u knw me very well or not..
im always free for ur to approach to. i can always provide ur my listening ear.
and i will always be there for your.
being there doesn mean only physically being there.. emotionally too..
even if years has passed and life has gone further and further..
if anything, just a call to me, if i can i will be there..
our friendship doesn stop at senior & junior, and it doesn stop here too.. =)
these are all the stuffs i can say, and they have been kept in my heart for too long..

this is not a post to gain attention.. not a post to try to gain respect, attention or wadsoever..
these are words meant for ur and they are my heartfelt words..
im not a person who is good in expressing myself..
so i guess this is the best way i can express myself..
of course some of my stuffs, my idealogy from this post
it may be wrong, it may be incorrect.
perhaps stuffs shouldn be the way i said..
but im sick and tired of trying to say things tat confirm 100% will be pleasant and correct..
of course you can correct me.. if im wrong in anyway or another..
all the stuffs r meant for Apex. hope ur get wad i meant.
thats all i have to say.. =)

let me just learn to forget past unhappiness..
let me just learn how to forgive n forget..
let me just learn to trust other ppl, esp them..
let me just learn to let go of myself n open up my heart..
let me just learn to cherish and enjoy every single moment with everyone in the club..
becos 1 resolution i made for myself for poly life year 3.. is never let myself regret again.. =)

2010-04-16T03:56:00.001+08:00

when they its the end of something, it is actually start of something new.
lets just try learn to embrace the present.

2010-03-23T01:50:00.002+08:00

it has been so long i blogged.
all this while was lazy to blog and in fact, has doubts of sharing my thoughts publicily.
but then now suddenly got feel blog, so here i am lor haha.

it has been 1 year since FO..
seeing what and how the juniors did their camp prep reminded me alot of memories.
been a senior is not easy..
feed too much become spoon feed, dont care too much become neglect.
sometimes when you speak, have to think so much just to determine whether is ur statement fair and useful, need care about their feelings, right or wrong. before you can speak.
i dont know what i have been doing is right anot actually..
but in d end, i guess there are no definite right and wrong in such things.
and.. seeing some things happen or give problem, which is outside of your area, you cant really do or say anything to help. bcos u got no right to, and has less knowledge.
but seeing things happen yet i cant do something impactful to help really feels like shit.
and seeing that club has become a year by year system sucks too.
many things in my head but i cant just say them out as easily, and with the consequences to bear if really say out. i dont even know i am right anot in d first place..
its like the same feeling i felt, being helpless.

After so long, im still unable to come out of my shell.
i still questioned the club system til this day..
and i found that i am only further and further away from you all.
the feeling sucks becos you felt alone, facing the world alone.
sometimes you cant stick to what you think is right and yet keep close relationships at the same time too.

felt so alone.

2010-01-01T18:50:00.003+08:00

it is the first day of the new year.
although yesterday night didn see countdown performances, fireworks or anything special.
but still it is a fabulous night, for the fact that been spending it with both sides of friends.
2009 was indeed a year to remember of . learned n gone thru much things, whether good or bad, high or low.
realised alot of things in life. which let me cherish even more the people around me.
it has really been a memorable year.
and now i will only look forward to the present, to the future, 2010.
hope that i would take whatever good things (and i mean anything) that i've gained and experienced along with me and forget/solve the bad things and low times in 2009, so moving on as a better person and better outlook in life. ^^
if there were ever to be a life quote that im ever going to be follow, it is:
bring it on, whatever life has to offer. Have courage to face just anything.
And enjoy life every moment possible.
i feel strong for these meanings and i will do it. but i dont know how long can this feeling last.
but i know now, my attitude is this. And hope that this mentality can really last. ^^
new year comes with new resolutions for the new year.
i've got mine. i hope and know that im gonna fufill them. at least i will work towards to them. ^^

haha perhaps i sound too profound eh haha. but yea these are the things i reflected and realised for the last few days of 2009. add more oil for me yea. (:

2009-12-04T00:49:00.002+08:00

hi all. finally back to blog again after like duno how many donkey months or weeks lol.
duno why suddenly got feel blog jiu come blog le. haha..
so what's up recently?
lol still the same old me ba. nth much to update about everyday.
except that i've finally gone clubbing for the first time! lol.
though i go there also stand there like stone like that.
but it is great to see and experience new things. haha.
just met up with some danchuns members last week.
it has been so long since we met le bah.
though nt much ppl can make it for the small gathering. but still it feels great.
think i gonna take up the role of organising chalet for them soon.
if not think we wunt have chalet le sia. from last time drag untill now.
and theres our GAIA outing at marina barrage!
lol we did some kite flying and picnic there.
and we talk cock play game too lol.
photos are up but think too lazy to get from mary and others.
but nevertheless,
it was fun hanging out with them. (:

haha hmm intercons coming up le. in fact is immediately after mst.
and nxt coming week is already mst! fast sia. think next 2 weeks gonna be pack with mst and intercons everyday le bah haha.
hope we wunt repeat history again like last year.
and i know somehow that we really wunt.
but in anyway anyhow, lets give in our all for the upcoming intercons bah, believe we can do it de. (:
mst coming and my modules are still abit shaky.
think gonna work extra hard these few days bah. though still will slack abit lah sometimes. LOL hahas. =x

after past few weeks, have thought through how i wanted to plan my future from year 3.
but first i have to pull my gpa up.
current score of 2.8 is not getting me anywhere.
next year gonna be tougher and busier too.
most probably be doing major FYP with other SPOT people, attending basic pilot theory course in SP.
after that see how, if possible jiu go for either lasik or go for PPL . see which 1 do first.
then apply for RSAF or other alternatives bah.
tough road though, alot of money and effort needed.
haha bo bian i have to JIAYOU luh!

but still, empty at some times.
how i wish not to be so overly emotional sia. LOL.

lol hmm but for now, just cherish and enjoy every moment i can get bah. annnd have fun, of course. haha. (:
wish me luck man for the upcoming intercons. (:

2009-10-25T02:44:00.002+08:00

so borring now.
nth to do, and dont feel like sleeping yet.
first week of sch has just gone.
everyday life back to normal.
gone for lesson before going to club everyday.
bball training for cadc has resumed, and is going to be tougher than bfore.
and i have started to come to sch on time! =D
that is 1 great improvement.. haha..
hmmm so bored now sia.
nth to keep me occupied.
feeling so empty and lost at times.
hate this feeling.

2009-10-14T02:31:00.002+08:00

woooshhh~ just back from interaction camp a few days ago.
first time being MIU was fun! though abit tiring also haha.
good job to all I/C PCs 09/10.. and of course not forgetting GAIA mius, the cooks and the grads.
hope this year I/C PCs will learn and gain alot from this experience.
mistakes done is over, what matters is learning and enjoying the process together.
kind of touching to hear their appreciation, and seeing them dropping tears for the camp, for everyone. hope that their journeys with us will not end here, and will continue to strive on.

another good thing is through this I/C camp, we cleared misunderstandings and all of us are getting back together. i also learned alot thru this camp, and realised that i began to trust more and more people in the club. hope that this will carry on.
many things to elaborate, but not going to list out here cos plainly too lazy le.
hope that the next FO camp, as a whole club we will do it better without anymore regrets.
learn and bond together as one. (:

2009-10-03T01:21:00.002+08:00

shocking week indeed.
nvr expect to hear the bad news.. nvr expect that at changi airport is the last goodbye to vinc.
cant actually believe that it really happened, like it was totally unreal.
as if, anytime after sch starts, vinc will still like usual come down to club everyday to play dota or carom, hearing his techies-like laughter and enjoying his presence.
left us so early, it really does hurts.

life is unpredictable, we should learn how to cherish what we have now.
hope that perhaps 19 years later, when all of us go back club to see how it is going, we can see another vincent in cadc and be able to do FO camp.
hope that he could find a better place in the next world, and reincarnate to a person with better and luckier life.
rest in peace vincent chia ming jin, we will miss you.

2009-09-13T20:57:00.000+08:00

im back again to blog. the holidays started le and that also marks the start of itp.
nigel they all went overseas itp in china.
bidded farewell to them on their flight day.
though everytime we all there kbkb, but cant deny that kinda sad to see them go also.
lols they gonna be back by 5 weeks time.

so everyday, went for work in the morning at kaki bukit.
the company specialise in servicing laser equipments,
all i done so far is just doing some minor paper work, and washing of laser equipments.
but recent few days learned how to calibrate laser.
lol didnt really master the skill, but at least had a concept of what's happening. haha.
then evening time finish work, jiu went back sp help them camp prep.
mainly also help the guitarists and their reports.
just now just finished recee at st john island only.
and so, 1 week has already passed, yet the duration feels like 1 month.
working there is boring. but at least at night can go back help the year ones.
haven been really playing ball this week though, hope can play more this week onwards.
but 1 bright note is able to apply leave for IC camp. haha so glad abt it.

things have changed over the past few months, or the past year.
is it called the reality of the part and pacel of life? or is it something that we can make a difference with.
seeing the past photos, past memories.
compared to what i see now.
it really make me feel that no happy things can last forever.
lol feeling lost here and there. not knowing where i am heading. not knowing what i really want. not knowing who are the people that i can really count on.
really hoped to solve this lost feeling asap.
hope everyday can dont need to think or have this feeling, but to spend everyday happier.
ok i know i sound emo lol.
should stop here now.
byebye.

2009-09-01T03:17:00.001+08:00

now is 3 plus am in the morning, sept 1.
lol just 'finished' revising for AEF exam tml.
later gonna go sch go discuss those duno how to do de qns with classmates.
sian siaa no motivation study.
heng i finished watch finish the show tang xing feng bao already. 1 distraction gone, haha.
today finally went cp starbucks alone at first to study AEF.
then later lawson came.
i down there studied for abt 2 hrs, and that stupid lawson play his game LOL.
then went discuss about dota things then jiu go home le.
just cut my hair todayy anyway.
like finally ~
haha hmm hope exam faster over, jiu less 1 stress thing liao hahaha.
gonna make myself work my ass off untill friday, -.-
haha but aiya can de lah, leng leng~ LOL
hmm this sunday edmund nigel nick gliford gerald and mathew going tian jin for their OITP.
they will be gone for six weeks.
haha hope they enjoy their time there bah.
ok shall stop here.
duno wad to write le lols. jiu like that bah.
byebye ~~

2009-08-29T07:51:00.002+08:00

hello all! i am back to blog again, after so many months mia lols.
changed the messed up blogskin already, now look nicer and neater le. haha
but the music thing still struck at the back ): LOL any kind soul can help me?
haha let it be bah, wait till i find some1 help me fix it. (:

lol life has been ok so far ever since i last blog.
a series of major events in club, like the grad night has past.
i cant rmb all the events that take past this few weeks le, so decided not to elaborate about that here le.
hmm now still exam period and here i am still blogging!
lols and now is already 7.55am in the morning, and i haven't sleep yet, been at moberly playing dota and crapping with oscar, kenneth and edmund. (:
haha should be study de night become play liao, wah waste 1 day sia.
but nvm! think still got time de bah haha.
hmm few weeks ago, got to know something, duno consider good or bad anot, for me lol.
but think it should be good bah.
dont really know how or what to talk to that person now, but well, just let it be bah.
happy jiu hao lo haha (:
gotta move on with life anyway haha.

life? has been different and been changing the 2 years.
long time i nvr go out play bball with my old friends le.
and long time nvr feel the urge to train and commit to bball le.
is it cos of the disappointment i experienced way months ago?
i duno, and really lost about it.
really wanted to go back to the days, where bball was almost my life.
and there are people who are equally passionate abt it will still accompany me through the path.
now like lost le. esp a friend that i know for a few years.
we used to suan each other the moment we saw each other.
used to understand each other, and share things togt, but now also no more this kind of relationship le.
nan dao my motivation for bball gone le?
i duno bah, i really want to search it and find it back somehow, someday.
wish me luck bah (:

haha now everyday is dota, jiaowei, dota, jiaowei.
quite fun and nice to hang out with friends with dota and all these.
but well, i think i cant be struck doing nth everyday? like no aim in life like that, hahaha.
but after these week, jiu itp le.
think also will be busy, cos day time itp, night time most probably either go back sch help camp prep or go bball.
so still alright haha.
hmm ok gtg le, shall update next time.
byebye..

2009-07-10T01:01:00.002+08:00

random mood to blog again.
life has been quite ok so far..
met danchuns on jiayi bday, haha so long nvr all 12 of us gather togt le.
even joseph that bei hor also got come, its great haha.
met up had ljs at clarke quay, before finding a spot and play true or dare.
it was fun making each other paiseh in the public, and that wingtong manage to take a picture with a chiobu sia haha.
then we drank some wine also. first time drink alot sia, all that oscar fault lols. but eh nvr drunk leh still not so bad haha..
then afterwards left a few of us at hougang mac, we go there talk.
long time nvr have good talk with them, felt good though abit no topic at times haha..
after danchun outing, i began to learn play dota, LOL.
i used to say dota is bullshit de, but now i am addicted to it haha.
it is fun but i always kana prawn by others zzz LOL. nvm i will train hard one haha.
ever since picking up dota, have been either studying or dotaing in club almost everyday..
nowadays life has been free and easy going. been having fun everyday kbing with ppl in club lol. trying to be more happy-go-lucky each day, and i did succeeded!
it was nice to develop a positive mindset for things.
guess i really put down the all the hatred and disappointment i have in them? or him? lol but i really have learn how to put down all these things and become a better person. of course though my stand wunt change, yet wunt be closed to other things also. and i will thru my experience help the year ones and avoid some things to take place again. but in the meanwhile, when there is no need to care for anything, just enjoy everyday that we have bah haha. (:
and actually was deciding whether want to go for oitp trip to china with nigel, nick and edmund.
it could be so exciting and would be definitely a good experience.
yet i wanted to help out IC camp this year.
but however cant go thee oitp cos of some financial matters.
it is a waste of an opportunity, but well can do fine without it also.
somemore still can go IC camp, bball and friends, so still not so bad..
hmm ok should stop here le.
will update next time. (:

2009-06-22T04:40:00.004+08:00

its 4.40am now.
and damn, im still fresh awake blogging here lol.
just downloaded The Sims 3 a few days ago.
has been addicted to the game ever since then, LOL die liao my mst.

damn fun this game, lols but wasted sia i download de is not full version. =.= then now go find The Sims 3 de full version and redl again bah. haha eh, wrong leh, i sound like a hardcore gamer sia LOL. nono dont want to be addicted till like that haha.

so the 2nd week of holiday has just passed. guess this week my daily lifestyle is quite plain sia. outside: gym, bball , at home: forcing myself to study, the sims 3, watch drama. didn really go out, perhaps 1 or 2 times bah. though i say got study, but is really force de lo. i only study 2 or 3 times, 1 hr each time. done AEF already (quite simple only), maths halfway thru. sian sia not efficient enough. actually planned a scheldue for myself, so that everyday got jogging, gym/bball, study. but in d end nvr able to follow =.= but ok lah at least i did train either gym/bball everyday lols.

there is alot of things i want to say, yet i dont really knw how to express out. been so sian about stuffs. it would be so nice just to have some1 trusted there to listen, to talk to, to understand, to accompany.

hmmm will be having bbq with gaia later on. most probably will be tonning with them already. lols kindda look forward to it.(:

ok gonna sleep now. byebye.

2009-06-13T02:37:00.004+08:00

whoo~ back from camp already.
so tired, slept for 5 hours in the afternoon.
go watch jianle's match already at night.
his team lost 3 points to quanfong.
saw my old coach also.
as usual, see him like crap lol.
oh sian, see competition match.
ownself nvr play, damn sian.
oh well, i am going back minyi after youth cup anyway.
want to train up, hope can play next competition.

lol life so sian.
come cadc.
learn alot of stuffs, make alot of true and good friends.
yet seen alot of ugly side of things, people.
seen one of my best friend's blog.
saw some of the things he wrote that i find extremely useful.

a country survives because of the laws it holds;
people fear the law and thus obey it. they don't speak out, so they follow.

a family survives because of the bond it shares;
people of the same blood try to flow together. they follow, so they speak out.

a community survives because of both;
people try to flow together and obey the laws. they make the choice to follow or speak out.

so are we a country, a family, or a community?

lols it fits the situation totally.

and sometimes, it is a matter of holding on when;
everything is falling out,
or when everyone is giving up.

untill u see the light.

hope everyone knows what this post is trying to say.
i seriously miss the times when we are all year ones.

2009-06-08T02:45:00.002+08:00

back to update blog awhile.
it is the holidays now, damn shuang.
dont need to study much til the last wk for mst =P.
subcomm camp coming up this week.
will be going as guitartist/camper.
haha hope it will turns out fine and fun . =)
today went sch for year2 skit.
some stuffs happens.
hope everyone will rmb.
the reason why they still held on today bah.
many things unsaid, undone.
see what happens in camp bah.

alright duno wad to say le.
next time update bah. (:

2009-05-30T21:52:00.002+08:00

random mood, random post.
the song that i like. (:

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

Chorus: I 'm all out of love,
I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long I 'm all out of love,
what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say
if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way,
it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone,
I'll be gone

Chorus Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?

what are you thinking of? =\

2009-05-20T00:08:00.002+08:00

i've failed over and over again, i can be consider a failure.
but failure would in turn be my motivation.
when on the verge of giving up,
recall the reason that keeps you going on.

im gonna do something.

2009-05-18T23:56:00.002+08:00

just back from sch not long ago.
today EEE match, we lost 49-51.
it was a close game and was quite disappointing that we fail to clinch the win.
there are much stuffs happen thru out the match though.
and sky argued with one of the guys from EEE.
over refree mistakes, and some miscalculation of points.
it was quite frustrating lah but aiya nvm bah, these kind of things do happen.
when we play, we aren't playing as a team yet.
but well, on the bright note, we did much better than the last friendly bah.
actually abit reluctant to play pg, esp for cadc.
though i did better this time round, but still cant really control my players well.
i like to attack and score, though it feels nice to playmake too.
today morning woke up, i feeling worst than the night before.
so skip morning lessons today and went to see doctor.
it was feeling sucks man this whole day, not feeling well.
but heng nvr affect my game performance much.
sian, u didn stay on for the match, lol.

you think you have gone through alot. you just haven listen to my part of story yet. and here i am, still not giving up, not forgetting the reason that keeps me going on.

2009-05-18T00:05:00.003+08:00

it has been 1 week since i last blog.
lols but quite alot of things happen past this week.
1. started to go for SP training ever since gotten in the selection.
2. nvr go minyi already. cos no more second team, and want to concentrate on SP team instead.
3. started maple with club peeps.

and yea major stuffs like that only bah.
and my maple character > bandit. but lvl 20 only still a rogue, lols.
was quite fun actually, skyping with them while playing maple.
at least wunt so no life haha.
but when chiong lvl alone, damn sian.
lols but well, at least there is 1 more thing i can do at home lah haha.
anyway, have to work hard for SP team.
i srsly want to get into the team.
though it is no guaranteed, and i am at a disadvantage.
but well, just play bah.
found out that playing forward is very relaxing, compare to pg.
i can attack freely or do wadever i want.
and manage to be a threat being a forward.
is it really i am more suitable to play as forward, or am i running away from being a pg?
lols srsly duno sia.
guess like wad a good friend of mine says.
just play the kind of ball i want, just play what it belongs to me de playing style.
it kindof work sia. i felt happier on the court.
i should nvr forget y i want to train/play ball sia.
so yea. just enjoy the game.

tml is friendly match against EEE.
lols see wad will happen tml bah.

2009-05-10T01:40:00.002+08:00

today woke up at 4pm.
i missed a study session with some gaia people. so sorry about that.
intended to go training at night.
in d end, there is no training for under 19.
only got under 17 ppl training.
so ownself train for 1 hour like that, they need use full court liao.
so leave the place.
go find lawson at serangoon.
while waiting for him, been thinking alot of things.
lols abit discouraged bah of recent things.
and yea we hang out awhile, then jiu go home already.
wasted the whole day today.
sianzation. hope tml will be a better day. (:

it is so tiring to care so much.
when no 1 even cares.

2009-05-07T01:41:00.003+08:00

today went for welfare intrium event.
it is the last comm event for intrium and yea as usual had our games
planned by the year ones. (:
it was quite fun bah, did enjoy myself with debate comm today, as i was posted to that comm.
the games r quite entertaining haha, at least to me lah.
onli that the finale was abit wierd, cause we play silent captain ball.
and we r not supposed to talk. =x
quite wierd wor, but still ok lah, everybody enjoy mah, lols. (:
and i had my face smashed with flour! zzz lols.
then we went to LT14A to have our prizes presentations and some traditonal finale games.
we seniors hid the year1s shoes/slippers.
some including myself, LOL wear their shoes and act yi ge duno. haha.
after the event, went clementi eat with the rest, before rching home arnd 12am.
sian sia, no different from training days, where i have to wake up early and sleep late LOL.
but still ok lah, it is worth it to be with them haha.
tml is another tiring day.
8am to 12pm lesson~
1pm to 5pm lesson~
7pm to 11pm bball training at minyi~
lols machaim got only 3 hours break nia for my scheldue tml zzzz.
but bo bian just hang on bah.
i must already know these consequences already since i've taken this path yea.
possibilty of second team forming is getting lesser and lesser..
I would be lieing if i dont say i am disappointed.
already 2 years i missed out on youth cup, for various stuipd reasons.
and this year is the 3rd year already.
but dont care bah, just concentrate on getting better.
my bball path doesn stop here.
life doesn stop here too.
i would just preservere till the end bah.
like what michael jordan had said
failure gives me strength, my pain gives me motivation
because of his failure then he can succeed.
and other than courage, he has one more thing, which is patience.
lols seriously i took him as a role model.
though since end of olvl i keep believing this.
but no result yet.
though i know my skills will not lose people.
yet i still duno how to apply my skills well yet.
and i haven been working really hard too, come to think of it. esp after coming to poly.
guess i've been thru enough to stop me from giving up all this.
and yea i will not give up.
cos i know i will succeed one day.
if i continue to work hard, work smart and BELIEVE.
lols i duno whether i sound like a bullshit.
saying all this lols.
but my heart really felt so, so i dont care what others say.
lols however, it will be nice to have some1 to confide to.
but perhaps, it takes alot to trust others bah.
in anyway, also have to be independent yea.
lols ok think shall stop this.
if not ppl gonna say i emo again, LOL
and yea now already past 2am le.
gonna catch some sleep for the next 4 to 5 hours.
before going back to school, lols.
again, wish me luck yea, lols.. (:

2009-05-03T02:05:00.006+08:00

after so many days.
have finally think it through.
clear my thoughts.
i know now, which is my chosen path.
what i wanted.
and that goal will be kept fresh in my mind all the time.
dont want to tui bu qi not only those who understands, but myself too.
only i know what is within me.
give me some blessing yea.
(:

2009-04-30T01:51:00.003+08:00

just finish changing blogskin.
eh not bad leh, i can actually learn to change blogskin myself without help of any1 haha.
but then the music ninja and archive section was put out of space sia
and now so late liao, lazy go think how to do it.
so just put it like this bah haha.
at least something new lor. if not see my old blogskin also sian lols.
and that two songs are nice. Sweet and meaningful. (:

2009-04-28T00:21:00.002+08:00

yooooo lols. wah this few days see my blogskin see till sian alrdy haha.
want to change leh but is like so mafan and i dont even know how to do. =x
i am a noobshit in this kindda thing anyway haha.

recently have been busying with bball trainings and sch yea.
by right, out of 7 days 6 nights i will be having trainings LOL siao right.
Cadc training, Minyi training lol.
but recently failed to get in first team of minyi.
damn disappointed and bu fu lah.
this isn the first time i experience such things already, sigh.
but well, got to pray hard that there will be a second team, and work hard on my own ball bah.
Cadc training was as usual. got quite plenty of year 1s joining in haha.
but the days r still early bah. so see how first lor for the team. ^^

and damned.
i actually didn know the date of SP sch team trial, and i freaking miss itttt.
sian lah. machaim double blow sia. lols.
but hope can have the opportunity to get in their training thru some friends inside.
at least it will increase my chance of playing for SP bah.
but i guess i still have to work on every area of my ball skills and fitness.
still not good enough to me. ):
guess i have to work extra harder bah. haha.

lols recently other than bball, and 1 occasion where i go find some GAIA peeps in yewtee,
i went out with lawson quite a few times too lol.
had alot of things in mind these few days n was quite fan bah.
but heng got him 'enlighten' me lah. LOL
guess sooner or later we gonna be gay partners le bah HAHA jk.
dont blame me for spoiling ur reputation lah lawson haha. =x

and school have been total slack, or maybe total slack for me only bah. =x
lols dont really have motivation to study and yup, i still got sleep in class de habit. lols
haha but hope can really buck up on my studies bah.
i aiming for at least 3.5 by end of my poly life.
lols. thats why have to buck up soon bah.
and yea, life has been like that for me for the past weeks.
sounds packed yea? lol
but sometimes sian luh. very tired everyday, yet cant afford to be tired.
lol and yea, kinda misses the camp preps days already.
haha ok shall stop here.
updates again. (:

maybe i should just forget yea? duno bah.

2009-04-18T21:46:00.001+08:00

the mv of zai jian.

enjoy. (:

2009-04-18T21:33:00.003+08:00

heyyyyyyy i am back from chalet already.
haha we did have fun in the chalet. there is overnight cycling on the first day.
follow by bbq on the second evening til night.
these r the main things we done lah in this chalet lol.
but on some times, abit sianz luh, cos when we r indoors, nothing much to do, lols.
oh, yea there is red alert 3 to entertain me along with nigel they all, haha.
and watch show abit here n there, lols.
some of us like junyi they all chiong mahjong machaim for the whole chalet, LOL.
too bad, i dont know how to play, if not i might had join them already hahah.
but overall still enjoyable bah, lols.
sianz school starting a few days later.
and i skipped training on thurs for the chalet, and i skipped today again, =.=
cos overslept at home, arrrgh damn sian, lol.
tml will be the last day of holiday le.
maybe will go find lawson go cut hair, then go somewhere walk walk bah, lols.
it is time to buck up for myself le, lols no more slacking.
esp for bball trainings, lols.
kk shall end here.
will blog next time. (:

wake up time. time to move on. lol.

2009-04-15T12:11:00.003+08:00

random post again, haha.

present to u our song, 再见 by 张震岳

every single word is very meaningful and memorable lah, haha.

我怕我没有机会

跟你说一声再见

因为也许就再也见不到你

明夜我要离开

熟悉的地方的你

要分离我眼泪就掉下去

我会牢牢记住你的脸

我会珍惜你给的思念

这些日子在我心中永远都不会抹去

我不能答应你

我是否会再回来

不回头不回头的走下去

i wunt mind listening this song over and over again lah, haha. (:

2009-04-07T00:49:00.004+08:00

hellooooo i am finally back from FO and Fusion camp.
it is finally over after 4 months of work, where 2 out of the 4 months are more intensive periods, especially the last month.
the first month of camp prep is the planning of games, mass dance, learning of songs, etc.
then during the 2 month of school days, we did some finalising of games and having song session every week.
it was nothing much though, compared to the last month of camp prep.
the last month of camp prep is when everything really comes in.
doing of equipments, acting of skits and various stations, testing of games, etc.
the practical stuffs are showing out.

i remember when we were campers, we are all enthru to join CADC.
we did stupid stuff togt, plan things togt as different sub-committees.
celebrate everyone's bday, go outings and tonnings togt.
there were debate competition, current affairs amazing race, bbq outings, blah blah blah.
then comes IC camp, where some are PCs already, some went to the camp as campers again, while some didn really manage to make it for the camp.
we did enjoy the camp in our own roles, whether is PCs or as campers.
i guess during IC camp, it is the first time i've seen people crying in debrief.
then after that comes another period of school for us, but more and more people are already drifting away from the club.
some dont come to club often. some everyday also come club.
lols come club to waste time, play RED ALERT, ton at lawson house though i didn ton as frequent as the others haha, study togt and etc.
and we have CADC month and other events too.
then comes the time of doing FO and Fusion camp, where everything begins.
during this entire period, we had our differences. we have our arguement.
we've gone through sorrow and joy, tears and joy.
yes, we have our own different group of cliques.
and some dont even come club often.
but however, during all this time, its like bonding different group of normal friends into 1 big family.
as time pass slowly, everyone begin to give for everyone, bond well with others that they are not as close with initially too.
through camp prep, i've learn alot of things, see through personalites of the people around me.
found who is the true friends that u r looking for and who will stick thick and thin togt with u.
lol perhaps there are more that i haven think of to mention.
this process is hard. yet all of us enjoy it, i believe.
i guess when people come poly to study, not much people has the same priviledge as us to get to go through all this stuffs.
dont care whether our performances is good anot in overall, what it really matters is that everyone is giving their upmost effort for this camp.
i was bothered also, initially by our performances as a group.
and i was bothered of not being able to help much beyond my horizon, and our lack of urgency and expectation.
but in d end, i knew that what it really matters is that everyone gave their upmost effort for this camp, for everyone, and that everyone has already develop their feelings for the camp and for each other as special friends, special mates.
though it sounds gay or les, lols but yup that is the best description that i can give haha.
now it has finally all ended. alot says that it is already the end.
i thought so too initially, and like everybody, i was sadded.
how ever, in fact it is actually the begining, like what yiyang said before.
it is our actual begining of our bond, and our journey in cadc and friendship.
who says we cant be friends, or be togt for the upcoming years?
we have 2 more years in SP cadc togt.
there should be no sadness also, cause we r spending another 2 years togt, if all of us remain in cadc.
i believe that if our bond is good, we will last for very long.
i dare not say it will be forever, but i believe that it will, at least for this 2 years.
so it is a end to a process that bond us together, and is also a start of our bond and a journy as a whole togt.
but this will only happen if all of us stay in cadc together.
hope that everyone will remain active in cadc, so that we can continue our journey together.
haha anyway, i never regret joining cadc and accepting the role of being a PC. (:

anyway all these things are all from my heart lah.
lols it may sounds naggy or dramatic or wadsoever haha.
but just wanna pour my feelings out and share with u who is reading my blog hahaha.
now camp finish already, will feel abit wierd.
maybe is too xi guan coming school everyday to do things le bah haha.
its time to move on bah.
i will continue my goals for bball and cadc.
i will also start to get back on good terms with my family and start enjoy life lah with fellow friends haha,

ok lah shall stop here after this long post lol.
shall update on fo camp stuffs when the pics come in bah (:

2009-02-18T00:47:00.002+08:00

random feeling to blog again lols
nowadays been mugging for exams with friends though got slack here n there haha.
then been following my air alert scheldue! lol my vertical jump got improve liao.
but abit only lah haha.
but still haven master qi bu jump sia sian sian lol
no choice have to keep trying and trying bah
and study is like damn sian sia, no motivation to study at times
though i know i have to do my really best this time round as the exams carry more weightage.
today DE paper just over. quite alright bah, have confidence in this paper.
but this thursday de maths paper... wahh hope nth will go wrong bah haha.
kinda no life eh? everyday onli think about exams exams n more exams. =.=
lol and i damn missed competitive bball sia.
hope would really find 1 team when camp prep ends.
lols til here bah, i have to go off sleep soon.
see when random mood again then blog again bah! haha.. (:

2009-02-17T01:40:00.003+08:00

random post

feeling little down now.
dont understand at all.
can some1 guide me?

felt alone.
forget it.

2009-02-01T12:54:00.002+08:00

another quiz by jingqi.
i dont really know how to upload those pics and stuff.
so i think i just write out bah haha. (:

1. Answer each of the questions using the Flickr search engine.
2. Pick a photo from the first three pages.
3. Copy and paste the URL of your chosen photos in here.
4. Then, share them with the world.

1. First name: Lester

2. Favourite food: Chocolate

3. Hometown:Sengkang

4. Favourite colour: red, blue, white

5. Favourite celebrity: allen iverson

6. Favourite drink: milo

7. Dream vacation: countries with rich history and nature geographical location

8. Favourite dessert: seldom eat dessert

9. What I want to be when I grow up: pro bball player? lol.

10. Favourite hobby:bball, redalert lol.

11. One word that describes me: easygoing

12. My Blogskins name: basketball.

2009-01-31T13:23:00.003+08:00

lols tag by jingqi, zwei and lifang to do the quiz again.
here goes..

1. The person who passed you this quiz is
jingqi
lifang
zwei

2.Your relationship with him/her-
friend/working partner
friend/boss&worker
close friend

3.Your 5 impression of him / her
helpful, hardworking, cheerful, soft-hearted, indecisive
hardworking, friendly, indecisive, funny, nice to talk to.
playful, funny, daring, understanding, lazy

4.The most memorable thing she / he has done for you
haha eh being my EMEI partner in IC camp LOL
using the key chain i brought for her bday, though now never use liao lah haha.
accompany go out when i sian lol.

5.The most memorable word she / he has said to you
jiayou
give me jing sheng shang de zhi chi
too many? or forgot le LOL

6.If she/he become your lover you will
give everything i have for her.
give everything i have for her.
IMPOSSIBLE cos i not gay lol.

7.If she/he become your lover, things he/she should improve on
be more decisive and stop being a follower (:
be more decisive and stop being a follower (:
not possible.

8.If he/she become my enemy
all 3 impossible lols

9.If he/she become my enemy the reason is
all 3 cant find a reason haha.

10.The most desired thing you want to do with him/her now is
do hao morning pt with her (:
jiayou in whatever things she do (:
gaying with him now and then LOL

11.Your overall impression with him/her is
nice gal, very hardworking and cheerful.
nice gal, a very good friend and nice to talk to.
nice guy, we both thinks alike

12.How do you think people around you will feel about you?
tiko? LOL im not ok =x

other qns cut off because already answer liao =x

2009-01-30T00:38:00.002+08:00

TAG REPLIES (:

xinlei: eheh no excuses!! you must do the quiz!! haha =P

hz: lol dont think wrong way lah haha.

IfYouKnowMe, YouKnowMe:): haha perhaps i have rough idea who u le bah, lol. hmm perhaps you are right. wait for that special someone then say bah lols (:

huilun: haha yup, tagged you two quiz. haha rmb do wor! lols why suddenly tell me u like feilunhai?

jianle: you suck too LOL. happy new year (:

2009-01-27T12:08:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYBODY! (:
haha though chinese new year, but still dont have the cny mood leh.
like everyday life like that lol.
collected some ang bao as my income, LOL.
but like damn boring lah, very long didn stayed at home for more than 2 days liao le.
lol but also good lah, sometimes stay at home more pei family also not bad.
lol on cny eve, went bball alone after reunion dinner.
met this guy who teach me some basic yet effective skills for point guard.
he's quite a good player, difficult to defend, a threat at stealing the ball lol.
but learned alot from him.
asked hp no. from him, so can go his training area.
go home msg him, yet no 1 reply till now. =.=
siann i like rmb wrong no. liao.
but well, will try ways to find him back, lol.
then ytd is the cny first day.
many relatives came our house to have lunch. then as a whole we went another relative house to bai nian also.
it was damn bored there luh.
so after awhile we went back home, play awhile red alert, then go find oscar & co (:
went watch love matters with them at marina, quite a nice and funny show haha.
intended to ton afterwards but didn in the end.
dad want me back home, so bo bian lor, haha..
then took cab home alone.
met this uncle driver, he is very friendly.
we talk all the way throughout the trip. he is a christian and he told me things like having a holy character, eg: dont care wad people treat u, care wad u treat people. lol quite true leh this dao li.
haha though he is speaking in christ form, n im not really a christ believer,
somehow i understand what he means, the values of such things in life.
it was quite meaningful luh.
well this kindda thing, what i feel is that all these depends on people themselves wan. some may say they dunt have the strength to do good and they need christ strength to do it. to me its not that they dont have the strength to do something, its whether they want to do anot. and i believe that fate lies within our hands. the outcome of our fate depends on our doings, not on god pre-made 'scheldue' haha..
rather i believe that god is there to guide u to the right path, instead of schelduing your life bah. no offence to anybody else there, but im just expressing my thoughts over this matter only haha.. (:

somehow everyday life, i was quite restless.
other than following the scheldue of my air alert, i like dont have the mood to do anything. eg: studies bball etc. siannn dont understand why like so sian and troubled like that, yet doesn really know the reason why. lol such contradiction right haha.. i guess it is so shen ao that no 1 can really understand bah.. i better buck up on my life bah, before i really drop into a big mess lol haha..
till here, update next time bah (:

2009-01-25T23:23:00.002+08:00

The rules and regulations:
1. Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about themself.
2. People who get tagged need to write their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts.
3. At the end, player needs to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back!

ONE: sometimes motivated to do something, sometimes not lols.
TWO: love basketball alot.
THREE: care for everybody, just that i dont look like im caring, LOL.
FOUR: when with friend and nth do, i will act gay with them HAHA. (ps:i not gay ar LOL haha.)
FIVE: very difficult to wake me up!!
SIX: lose confidence easily
SEVEN: determined to make something happen if i want it.
EIGHT: dont have the habit to dress myself up lols.
NINE: will be shy sometimes, yet thick skin sometimes LOLS HAHA..
TEN: will have occasional moodswing.

10 ARE YOU's
1. Are you single - yes.
2. Are you happy- seriously i dun know also lol.
3. Are you bored - Somehow,when i haf nth to do.
4. Are you fair- hai hao bah.
5. Are you Italian- No.
6. Are you intelligent- dont know leh lol.
7. Are you honest- Yes,depends on what situation.
8. Are you nice- Yes! LOL
9. Are you Irish- No.
10.?

TEN FACTS
1. Full Name
# Lester Wee
2. Nicknames
# aiyo many dao i dun want say le haha lols..
3. Birth place
# SINGAPORE! Mount Alvenia
4. Hair color
# Black
5. Natural hairstyle
# spiky scattered hairstyle haha.
6. Eye Colour
#Black
7.Birthday
# 12 july 1991
8.Mood
# Sians.
9. Favourite colour
# red, blue, white
10. One place you like to visit
# NBA!!

10 person i tag:
zhongwei
xinlei
jingqi
kenneth
huilun
qiaoyan
victor
gliford
jiayi
brian

2009-01-25T12:26:00.002+08:00

quiz by caleb chan (:

1. The person who passed you this quiz is-
caleb

2.Your relationship with him/her-
friend/former junior

3.Your 5 impression of him / her-
passionate, capable, responsible, committed, hardworking

4.The most memorable thing she / he has done for you-
Making me do this quiz! lols

5.The most memorable word she / he has said to you-
eh quite long ago liao, forgot le, LOL

6.If she/he become your lover you will-
no i not gay lols.

7.If she/he become your lover, things he/she should improve on-
Impossible.

8.If he/she become my enemy-
wunt care him lols.

9.If he/she become my enemy the reason is-
cant find a reason haha.

10.The most desired thing you want to do with him/her now is-
Say hello.

11.Your overall impression with him/her is-
He's a guy.

12.How do you think people around you will feel about you?-
dont know, never think before haha.

13.The characteristics you love about yourself are-
being true to everybody and myself, goal-oriented, understanding bah?, others i dun know lols.

14.On the contrary,the characteristics you hate about yourself are-
lazy and lack of confidence at times..

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?-
be myself. (:

16.For those people that care and like you, say something to them-
thanks for everything. (:

17.Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you..

1. zhongwei
2. kenneth
3. jingqi
4. lifang
5. xinlei
6. qiaoyan
7. victor
8. huilun
9. weizhuang
10. gliford
(:

18.Who is no. 6 have having a relationship with at the moment?
Nobody.

19.No.9 is a male or female?
shemale LOL jk haha, male.

20.If No.7 and No.10 are together, will it be a good thing?
Of course, then my class got 1 gay couple liao haha.

21.How about No.5 and No.8?
no unless they are lest haha.

22.What is No.2 studying?
game design.

23.What was the last time you had a chat with No.3?
now lol.

24.What kind of music band does No. 8 like?
not sure.

25.Does No.1 have any siblings?
Yes.

26.Will you woo No.3?
erm, didn think before lols.

27.How about No.7?
NOT IN A MILLION YEARS.

28.Is No.4 single?
no, attached liao le.

29.What is the hobby of No.5?
there emoing HAHA.

30.Do No.5 & No.9 get along well?
hai hao bah??

31.Where is No.2 studying at?
SP school of design

32.Say something casually about No.1.
he is a bastard HAHA jk.

33.Have you try developing feeling for No.8?
as a friend bah haha lols.

34.Where does No.9 live?
Somewhere in bukit batok.

35.What does number 3 like?
arron LOL =P

36.Are No.5 & No.1 best friends?
dun know bah.

37.Does No.7 like No.2?
unless they are gays lols haha.

38.How do you know No.2?
hmm cadc fo camp (:

39.Does No.1 have a pet?
Don't think so.

40.Is No.7 the sexiest girl in the world?
LOL YA!!

41.Do you think it possible No.4 & 5 date each other?
No, unless they are lest lols.

42-Say something more about No.6.
a noobster who study optometry haha.

43.What is the relationship between you & No.9?
good friend.

44.List all the school that No1.-No.10 are in and originally from and your relationship between him or her:

can dun anwser this? too long le lah lazy type haha lols.

45.What will you do if No.10 hates you?
dun know never think before bah.

46.Which of the following are in a relationship?
1, 4 and they are together.

47.How do you first met No.3?
cadc fo camp bah (:

48. What would your reaction be if No.3 and No.10 are together?
shock bah haha lols

2009-01-19T00:46:00.000+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Disappointment
Looked down on
Where Your life is Going
Death
Commitment
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

2009-01-17T12:21:00.002+08:00

alot of things happened recently.
for me, my studies becoming more and more bad.
overslept late for lesson, sleep in class, no energy.
test chui, new topics dont understand, no motivation.
didn spend anytime on tutorials or revision at all.
this cant go on sia. at this rate, i will sure fall soon.
hope i can pick up some motivation and really work on my studies bah.

bball wise, been training air alert3 for the past 2 weeks.
duno got use mah leh, lol.
but well, am trying all sorts of ways to improve my jump and my game bah, lols.
haiz, somehow really miss competive club bball.
hope engtat hornets will really call us up bah.

Ytd night had song prac again with fellow pcs.
beforehand we had some bday celebration with jamie.
lols they came up a video for her, hope she like it and enjoys the celebration by us bah haha.
then had our usual song prac.
indeed we really had alot of problems, regarding song prac alone.
and during debrief, some of us r already breaking down.
at first actually want to say somethings about the matter, n try to encourage them.
but in d end didn. cos it isn a correct time to say something, cos already so many ppl r talking abt the same thing agn and agn, n everybody mood alrdy low liao.
jiu see no point lo.
but problem is say the same thing agn and agn.
but the matter is still not solved yet.
hope that last night de sharing session really work this time round bah.
come on, this is our first time, and our last time to be FO PC.
r we going to just let this time of period pass by meaninglessly, or make full use of this period?
its only these times that we can all get togt, work and bond togt.
shouldn't we put in more than 100% effort, to make full use of these times?
and to make the camp successful and bond ourselves?
regardless of reports or song prac or whatsoever.
have we ever think bfore, what is our maximum limit? exactly how much is our 100%?
have we really dui de qi ownself, dui de qi other fellow PCs?
if problem comes r we going to sit there brooding?
and let ourselves be more n more scattered and rot?
come on, there are definitely tough times in whatever we do.
as long as all of us held strong togt, i believe we can overcome all this.
and we would all be so happy and satisfied with ourselves at the end of this.
i can ensure that.
well in short.
lets all continue work hard togt, and strive for the common goal bah.
we can do it, no matter how diffcult it is. (:

and lastly,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMIE! lols (:

2009-01-04T00:26:00.003+08:00

random mood to blog, haha..
yesterday start training my fitness up with victor in sch.
jog arnd sch, pull ups, situps all chiong, haha.
played some bball then went prata session with oscar and company. (:
intended to go yewtee check eng tat hornets training.
but heard from jianle that might not have training, and moreover, it is just the 2nd day of the new year.
then also dun feel like going alone, so in d end nv go.
will be going next tues or fri bah.
then next day went swimming with sec sch friends bfore playing ball at woodlands.
and now mywhole body is aching like mad luh! haha..
hanzhong gave me the air alert program liao,
maybe will start on this week le.
hope it will help bah..

just went blog visiting, and saw a classmate's blog.
he was talking abt a article he found, and how that article really changed him.
some of the things that he mentioned, i felt is so true luh.
he stated that parents will always think of the best road for their child's future.
and logically speaking, it is of course the most safe and reasonable route
that parents will prefer to recommend.
some child thot that it was right,
and inside their heart, their dreams r left untouched and remain as a dream.
they r counted as impossible task, or as a route that got no future.
but 1 day comes a stranger, who encourages u to pursue ur dream courageously.
saying that dare to try the things that you want to do, to accomplish.
because u got only 1 life, n its now or never that u go pursue ur area of interests or dreams.
now, if u happen to come across this situation,
which would u choose? the safer route scribed out by your parents?
or the route that allows u to pursue, yet got so many obstacles in it and big difficulty in successing,
the route that u know is so much tougher than the safe way,
which 1 would you choose?
lols for me i reflect and think.
i've always come into this situation le,
whereby my parents wants me to study study study, and try to find a job in the workforce and work on it.
it is the most reasonable and safe way,
because this way i would have a more stable or even higher income.
and it is near to impossible that you will fail in this route.
but however, i know that if i dunt try the things that i want to try
dunt pursue the things that i like, dreams that i always dream of now, like good example bball,
i would never to get to enjoy them again if i dont do it now.
if take the safe way, would it be more meaningful than the other route? no lor..
1 thing is everyone only have 1 life.
make the most out of it and enjoy it.
and never regret all the things that you went through.
and never regret all the things that you went through.
furthermore, people may not choose this path as it is much more risky.but i would say that they lacks the courage lor..
furthermore, people may not choose this path as it is much more risky.
but i would say that they lacks the courage lor..
and they r just not willing to stay out of their comfort zone to get the things that they want.
cos life isn about earning money, or making sure that all 3 meals are well taken care of.
life is about you yourself, how you gonna spend it the way u want it.
and doing things that will allow u to enjoy and be happy.
with this, i believe it is even more fulfilling and meaningful.
even though the pursue your dream route will be so much tougher and risky,
the fact that you love it , i guess is enough for you to go thru this tough path.
only through the tough times then you know how impt the things that u do to u.
n learn alot of things in life.
this would be the much more happier and fulfilling life,
at least in my opinion lah lols.
now i know that bball is my area of interest, and i have a long term basketball dream.
i would still pursue it bah, haha.
cos i will never forget how it feels to score a basket, run positions, making assists, blah blah blah
i will never forget how carefree and happy i feel when playing bball.
so all the more i cant give up my aim now,
when the going gets tougher and tougher.
i dun know wad will happen in d future
but i know that now, i would not give up lah, and i enjoy playing ball.
so i would still follow my heart and my dreams.(:
at least for now, i know.

haha so write untill here bah
updates next time bah (:

2009-01-01T12:55:00.002+08:00

Happy 2009 New Year!! haha.. today is the first day of the year, and here i am blogging to kickstart the year lols. (:
Time really pass by so fast seh, another year has past by.
it seems like onli ytd when we just collected our olvl results.
Throughout my months in poly, have seen and experienced many things, good or bad. there are many regrets and many happy and meaningful moments thruout the year.
seen friends around us in their most down times, most angry times and many many happy times.
Though when got into cadc camps, i played less bball in those camp preps, and my life is like all cadc when during the times when we do camp togt.
it was rather hard to adapt with initially but in d end i really enjoyed the time spend with them, not cadc club, but the friends i made in cadc.
guess i've really have to be grateful that i joined this club in poly, cos i know if i didn't, my life wunt be the same as now.
spending time with the friends inside, and doing camps togt, playing bball togt, i've really learned alot of things.
most impt, i've realised nth on earth is good enough, or as impt as being togt with your loved ones eg your friends, family, gf/bf etc.
because even if how good u r at something, or how good looking u r, how good is your career/studies,
without your loved ones, all those means nothing, cos ya never be happy.
but even if u got nothing in your life, but with the company of your loved ones around you, your life would be so much more fruitful and happy.
i've also learned how to go thru the hard times with others, learning that each and every person can be the sole reason why everybody hang on,
and experienced the satisfaction and joyful feeling that you get from working hard with your other friends togt in the process to accomplish something, like a very good example, camp.
In all, i never regret coming to this club, because the people there made a difference in my life. now we have this fo camp and fusion to do. i can say the road ahead is far more tough.
i hope everyone will pull through the tough times together and i believe we can.
hope everyone will enjoy our times togt and let our camp be successful. (:
our time togt may be short, may be long we all duno, but at least we've spend our time togt before, smile talk laugh togt before. jiu like cherish the times we spend togt lo. (:

for bball, i've really neglected bball alot ever since start of dec. (except for intercons)
been busy over camp preps.
i have to admit that i really miss it, and i want to get on track to my goals and purposes in bball, like eg playing well for this coming youth cup.
but til now haven even find a team ever since admiratly csc stop training.
i hope can faster find 1 team, then can continue my bball journey le bah.
i may have to have another big stop again this coming holiday for camp prep,
but i believe it should be ok and im able to get back my fitness when camp is over.
then after that can go play youth cup le, lols..
and continue pursue my goals bah.
wish me good luck then haha.

eh my new year resolutions?
to fufill my basketball goals, make the camp successful, memorable and most imptly, to find that special someone.. hahaha..
hope my new year resolutions can be realised bah (:

2008-12-28T17:57:00.002+08:00

hello everyone! lols. back to blog a little since my blog has been dead for so long.
haha alot of things and events took place recently.
chirstmas gathering at ganjoo house, welfare event, cadc month stayover event, etc.
we had fun in those events and i guess this year's chirstmas
is 1 of the most fun n meaningful christmas so far in my life, haha.
shall not go into the details cos there is too much things to say! lols.
anyway brought a new cap and 2 billabong tee.
and recevied 2 jackets and another 2 tee as presents from my mum and relatives.
lols got alot of clothing this time round christmas hahaha .=D

intercons is over le.
we lost all matches.. siann.
but well, blame it on our complacency and team attitude.
thinking that we r good enough already.
the team's attitude towards bball really sucks.
we were good, attitude was right.
but somehow when exam period all da hui yuan xin.
dun have a real leader.
everyone wants to play his own style, haiz.
if like that, is this call a team? ~sighs~
also blame me bah.
first time be point guard.
i didn do well, seriously not experienced enough.
but ok ba, learned alot from this intercons myself.
i just wished to improve my game and hope i can do alot more better in my next competition.
next year de intercons, most prob stay in cadc bah.
hope hanzhong can really change the team.
now is looking for team le, this fri maybe going down yewtee with jianle.
look for engtat hornets, lols wish us good luck bah haha.

camp prep has started and has ended.
this time de camp prep very relax. of course due to relaxsation, people's efficiency not as high le.
and omg, we r really behind time in our equipments clue in, treasure hunt rehearsals blah blah.
we got so much to do yet so little time to spare.
and yet not a single report is finalise, damn shag.
must take up sch time to complete the reports and some basic equipments
before next camp prep starts bah.
had a overall debrief ytd
hope everyone can listen to whatever that is said and really buck up bah.
dun give others a chance to criticise us.
come on, i know we can do it. (:
really look forward to the next camp prep, somehow lols.

lols somehow my life now is cadc cadc.
long time didn played bball often le.
long time nv hang out with danchuns le.
long time nv be with family le.
but somehow can anticipate it, cos we all want to make this camp a success.
and we pcs treasure our time together.
everyone will have to be ready to sacrifice their other commitments.
haiz hope danchuns, others can understand.
for bball wise, from sch start onwards, i want to reactivate my last time de involvement le.
i want to train up for youth cup this june.
though march got the camp prepp
i have to stop for 1 month.
but i know i can do it de bah even if i have to stop for 1 month. haha. (:

school reopening tml, sian part is have to study.
lols but will go on with my bball.
and my games le bah
hahaha. thats all bah.
next time then update again. (:

2008-11-19T00:53:00.002+08:00

im back to revive my almost dead blog again haha.
being busy this few days.
begin to start my revision on my MST,
Bball training.
Game reports
etc etc is what i've been doing these few days.
wah damn scare my studies sia, ever since new sem start,
i've been practically sleeping in every module's lecture, and is sleep thruout!
though got half awake at times n try to understand n copy dwn notes
but jiu shi not enough, i guess.
didn do tutorials as often as bfore too. (oops)
sometimes, is understand but when comes to do, wah jiu cmi.
and i've got 4/20 for my online maths quiz, zzzzzzz
lowest in class, haiz stress sia.
hope these 2 weeks could be sufficient for me to chiong back my studies bah.
need to fire engine liao, lol.
anyway, hope my games will be much more fun and feasible this time round, =D.
quite looking forward to song prep on this friday, haha.
basketball wise, i've slowly found and solve my problem of penetrating liao.
today's training can see signs of improvement, can penetrate easily liao.
but jiu shi my finishing sucks, and is damn sucks. ):
hope can improve on this and my courage bah. lol.
hope can make a big impact in the intercons, in my own team haha.
kk shall stop here.
updates again bah haha (:

let me slowly forget..

2008-11-10T01:16:00.002+08:00

slept whole day today,
woke up at 1pm
eat alrdy slp rest awhile slp til 5.30pm
zzz like waste the day sia haha.
but ok la, rest and take back my lost sleeping hours.
lols then played ball with jianle at skcc.
then he went off with his gf,
n i went 260 practice 3 point n dribbling.
lols asked jianle to help me ask eng tat hornets..
see can go in ma, lols.
then jiu got chance play for next year youth cup liao. (:
lols nth to write abt.
update again ba. (:

anyway did some random quiz. (:

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

XINLEI: heh thanks wor. (: hahaha yep BE YOURSELF! lols (: i not naggy ok =P

jianliang: orhhhhhhhhh LOL. haha see how ba. i missed playing forward/guard. but playing pg is nt bad either, HAHA. see which position i play will benefit the team more lor. (:

lifang: haha thanks wor. (: yea will jiayou de (:

ahZhuang: haha aiyo sui bian la LOL

2008-11-09T01:29:00.003+08:00

TEAM CADC (:

back to update again! hahaha.

wednesday de friendly match against EEEC.

we won!! haha happy~

tey say is first cadc win in history,

n first time break 60 points too.

though our performance isn tat fantastic,

it is still quite a big acheivement, haha.

it has been a huge stepping stone from a scattered, losing team.

into a bonded and begin to win de team.

but we cant just relax too.

there is still much to go if we were to aim for the finals.

in terms of unleashing out everybody de potential,

and improving our teamwork.

we can definitely do it man! BELIEF!! haha

JIAYOU TEAM CADC !! (:

i wasn tat nervous as bfore le, n become more daring.
though still not enough la, to me.
but did still show signs of improvement =D
hope i can fully overcome this weakness of mine. (:
only down part is didn get to play much.
only get to play 1 quarter and a half like tat, agar agar.
lol but at least i knw tat i've done my part as a pg
and contribute to the team alot.
scored a 3 pointer for the team, and others is all assists.
hope can do even more better next time round haha. (:

guess im slowly finding back myself, the older me.
begin to understand things little by little.
which is good.
just be true to myself ba.
anyway, i've agreeded to do fo alrdy.
i wun regret my decision.
hope it can be a fruitful and meaningful experience. (:

haha anw lately have not been getting enough sleep.
do things hor, sometimes like very low energy like tat.
LOL n im going to slp now.
nights everyone! (:

2008-11-01T02:27:00.004+08:00

ytd had training again. did some shooting drills n in d end court book by smit
bo bian must give in to them. sian lor,
but nvm next few weeks de tues n thurs got book liao. haha..
den went stadium jog 2.4km did quite a no. of pulls up and a couple times of 100 metre sprints too.
long time nv run liao, at first bu xi guan, but the feeling slowly get back lo haha.
but somehow felt my long dist running, esp arnd stadium deprove liao leh, ):
duno is my expectation too high or really deprove.
oh well, just try to improve ba lols.
afta tat training suppose to end early liao,
den sky got a random idea to play 5v5 with smit.
all of us agree and stay on for the match.
we r all enthru abt it, and when we have prepartions to play against them,
i can sense the urge to win attitude and the team spirit, which is good =D haha..
then when play, 1st step to the court, duno y suddenly tat feeling come again.
tat feeling of nervous, hyped up, lack of confidence and decisiveness acts up again, haiz..
though nt as worse as bfore, but it is still not enough. ):
then as i tink back i jiu realise
actually is nt tat my shooting, my penetration etc is not good enough.
is me myself have this stupid mental barrier like eg lack of confidence and decisiveness
which made me so nervous and unable to calm dwn
and therefore my percentage like nt as gd as bfore,
which is not really myself..
den when play shi hou, wah damn pekchey.
our offence no option, no flow no nothing.
forwards didn come out 3 point line to receive ball, and they stand inside instead.
if not they jiu run lai run qu, duno for wad.
den my centre, lawson being in the high post, is being sandwiched by 2 or 3 players, yet i find no ppl on the wing sometimes, damn frustrating.
i think we should really work on this part.
i guess our biggest problem, REALLY, is our offense de philosphy, be it centre or forward. it is not about stradegy (zhan fa) whereas it is more about the basic roles of everybody.
no swing ball, nv yao qu n even if got, stand de position wrg, no post up, forward anyhow run, wah probs here n there.
me also lor, duno why so nervous sia.
friendly only, yet i get so worked up.
my mind is like blank lor sometimes, zzz den when wan control, also cant control.
only manage to score a 3 point, T.T
but ok la, can see that we got the shi li to score, defend and play well.
it is just that everybody, including me de offence concept is not up to par yet.
if duno how to post, how to run for position etc,
then of cuz no chance for them to attempt to score oso wad..
but ok la, good thing is i can see everyone's effort la, which is good. (:
hope that can improve on this major area
bfore the friendly against EEEC next wed.
thus monday and tuesday de training damn impt, hope captain can spend and focus more time on our offence..

come on guys.. lets work hard together.. (:
and i gonna find ways and make sure tat i gonna be more calm and myself when during full court matches liao.
im not gonna let the same kind of mistakes pull me dwn and regret.
jiayou to me ba haha..
kk stop here ba.

2008-10-30T00:05:00.002+08:00

HELLO everyone! lols this sem de lessons starts at 8.30am everyday, damn shag, keep cant focus during lessons n i slept thru alot of lessons. everyday go sch like living dead zzz hahaha. today did IE with victor after sch, with the help of edmund's laptop and nick's help. wah if dun have them, i think dun need do alrdy, lol cos both vic and i knw nuts about the stupid project and we r doing LAST MIN work lol. den afta tat went agm for CA time line challenge event before going for the EEEC de 3 on 3 competition.

it is a round robin format. but for our team we did badly, winning 1 match and losing the other 2. siannnn lor. but ok la, at least thru this experience we knw where our major problem as a team is, which is everyone de offense philosophy!

our offense no option, no nothing. lol hope tat the remaining trainings which we try to cover more on offense stradegy etc will help ba, and of course our defense too, though it is only slightly better than our offense, to me. but the problem with me is still the same, my decisivness and my calmness. i was getting hot up when vs the 2nd team, as they very rough, make so many fouls yet referee nv say, zzzzzz, alright nvm. but i wasn calm enough to see the situation and think hao ways to score. i wasn as decisive oso, yao jie bu jie, yao she bu she, and i lao ball quite a lot of times lor. though got improvement liao but i still think not enough lor.. then somemore duno y my shooting inconsistent sia, zzz. suddenly my shot kept go off way thru out the competition. damn disappointing la, cos we is have the strength to proceed to sec round, but just cos of stupid mistakes like this that result us into being eliminated. ahhhh the key thing to do now is to figure out how to solve these problems. we seriously hope can improve all these before the intercons starts ba. (: the rest of the days is CHIONG CHIONG CHIONG PRACTISE BBALL!! hahaha.
come on man, we can definitely be a strong contender to the championship and it is nt impossible to win the tournament!!

haha anw got the jersey already too. my no. = 9. my jersey back put my own name and number, front just number. white main with red stripes. lol well wish us good luck ba =D
kk shall stop here. (:

tag replies:

chengteng: eh what SUAGU!! lols i not ok, u this AUNTIE!! =P
jing: HELLOS haha. update le, heh =D
stephy: wah say untill like that wor, then next time bbq dun cook for u eat already =P
jiayi: YEA YOU ARE RIGHT =X
dr.feli#: heh very good haha.. =D

2008-10-25T01:42:00.004+08:00

heh tagged by lifang. (:

1. Do you have secrets?

eh yup of cuz, everybody have de wad, LOL.

2.Would you fall in love wif a girl younger than you?

heh depends lor, lol.

3.Do you enjoy going school?

the only enjoyment i got frm going to sch is FRIENDS, CADC n bball. lol.

4.What would you do wif a billion dollars?

heh seriously nv think bfore sia haha.

5.Will you fall in love wif ur best friend?

heh how i know sia, if got then say ba hahaha.

6.Which is more blessed,loving someone or being loved someone?

being loved by someone

7.List 5 favourite movies.

secrets

wu jian dao

spiderman 1 2 3

coach carter

ironman

8.If the person you secretly liked is alrdy attached,what would you do?

happy for her.

give them my blessing.

try best to forget tat person.

9.Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?

friends around me.

when playing basketball.

acheived my goal or target.

10.Do you hab any regrets?

yea.. but its too late..

11.How would you see yourself in 10yrs time?

eh married? pro bball player? lol.

12.Who are currently the most important people to you?

everyone arnd me.

13.What kind of person do you think the person tagged you is?

heh shy, dao and quiet ba when first know her, haha.

but quite approachable after that.

now a very good worker. =D

14.Would you rather b single & rich OR married but poor?

married but poor? cuz poor or nt nt impt.

impt is to be happy haha. =D

15.What is your favourite colour?

red blue..

16.Would you gib all in a relationship?

yes i will, as long as the person is worth for mi to do so.

17.If you fall in love wif 2 person simultaneously,who would you pick?

heh the person who i love most lo. (:

18.What are the top five countries on ur to go list?

hmm nv think bfore leh LOL. usa included?

19.Do you prefer being a single or having a relationships?

both have its pros and cons.

20.5 people i have tagged.

jiayi

lance

jingqi

kenneth

felicia

tags reply!!! (:

HUILUN: CHEERS! LOL!

Ah Zhuang: no la where got emo sia haha. i've change the blog song liao. =D

Lance: hey yo!! lol yea i like also haha.

stephy: wah come my blog say me suck WIN LIAO LOR hahaha.

jiayi: yea i agree HAHA

XINLEI: i whre got bully sia LOL.

lifang: ya la very proud la LOL.

all d best to u. (:

2008-10-19T14:23:00.002+08:00

random mood do random things, LOL haha took some quiz.

Lets101 Quizzes - Fun Quizzes

Lets101 Quizzes - Quizzes for Fun

it isn ur fault. just follow ur heart ba, lol. =)

2008-10-18T01:54:00.002+08:00

still rmb how we knew each other, plan games tog.
still rmb how we chatted all the way to the wee hours everyday at first.
still rmb the first time we met at bz lib wher u r teaching me maths.
still rmb how disgusting u put me to be, when i bhb with u to make u laugh.
still rmb ur smile when i offered to carry ur laptop.
still rmb how much i wanted to learn guitar to play 4 u when u told me u like guys who plays guitar, n u say u wanna listen.
still rmb we gave each other jing sheng shang de zhi chi and our lollipop.
still rmb how happy i was when i saw u using my tortise keychain.
still rmb the times when im with u, sch lib, woodlands lib study, to the movies etc.
so many to rmb.
but all these r alrdy the past.
they can onli be my memories fo rnow.
blame me for not grabbing up the chance earlier.
no use brooding over it nw, cos its really too late.. too late..

2008-10-17T00:03:00.026+08:00

first up some IC camp 0809 photos!! enjoy luh =D

final group photo after break camp
EMEI RAWKS!! =)

heh first impression game (:

random pics

all of us (:

IC PCS 0809!!

campfire, haha

cool CADC name with indicators haha, zk duno do wad stunt there =P

beach game 0809 (:

heh my station, splash water!!

telematch 0809 (:

LOOK AT HIM!! HARDGAY haha

oh man wad oscar doing?! haha

heh song session

senior scavanger hunt games

preparing for our fav mass dance (:

heh our cheer presentation, EMEI ZAI EH!!

four retardeds here HAHA

heh another EMEI PIC.

all messy messy lol

introduction to the campers

first pic when they reach jetty

during advance day haha

heh wo men zhui zai!!

woah it has been a week or so since i last blog, lols. many events took place in between, like cadc chalet last week. haha lols sia la i kana "rape" and "torture" by the guys sia zzz LOLS. but had a fun time luh lols then we also went the red hse after that. tat time got 10 ppl go but only 6 went in. all 10 of us listened and experienced alot of different things sia, and we only came to knw of it when we went chalet to discuss, hahaha. but tat place is really damn eerie la, lol but duno why like very interesting to go check it out like tat lols.

heh anw past few days been having moodswing. duno y after camp my moodswing gets worse sia lol. cant joke or tok freely sometimes, zzzzzzzz. after toking to lawson and liying about things, it felt so way better man, lol THANKS haha. =D as wad they say, just be myself, dui de qi zi ji jiu hao, haha. =)

intercons coming up lo!! lol is our team ready? weelll i guess is a half yes half no. half yes is tat i believe that we have the abiltiy to become a serious contender for the intercons, but half no, represents mentailty things. they dun believe in themselves very much, training sometimes nt serious, and attitude.

somemore, since sch start training attendance has been getting irregular. a few of mates became sian abt it. come on man, we have made the decision not to merge with SB n made the decision to play as a team, to win something. we definitely have wad it takes, to me.

i really wish tat they wun give up this team or the intercons or the various matches. i've had alot of past bad experience abt teams, where the team doesn bond, and doesn train n play with heart. but i can sense the bond and heart in our training somehow. i really hope this chance will not go to waste, and i believe we can do it.

cos to me, as long as the team is bonded n shows our team spirit and every single player in the team, gave his best efforts and heart to our team and in our matches, even if we were to came out of the intercons with no medals, deep dwn our hearts, we still won, as the greatest opponent we r facing, is not the opposition team, but ourselves. we all want to win and i believe we can all do it. =)

missing u. though i knew i shouldn. ):

2008-10-11T02:32:00.002+08:00

heh got this quiz from weizhuang, dun mind eh =P

First off, what's your name?
lester.

How old?
17

Where from?
sengkang

Who's the lucky someone?
oscar, LOL

Who's the bff?
wad's that?!

Who's the hero?
heh?

What's the eye color?
Black.

What's the hair color?
Black.

How many times have you been in love?
heh, 4?

Do you plan on having sex before marriage?
HEH?

Do you drink?
social drinker

Do you smoke?
No.

Would you call yourself confident?
no.

Have you ever given into peer pressure?
sometimes.

What is the vacation you're most looking forward to?
next vacation lor, what else? LOL..

Watermelon or Cantaloupe?
Watermelon.

Mango or Peaches?
mango.

Raspberries or Strawberries?
strawberries.

Peppers or Tomatoes?
Peppers.

In middle school were you the "popular one"?
i dun't know how u define it.

What is your future dream job?
pro bball player.

Have you taken any steps to achieve that yet?
yup.

What exact time and date were you born at?
12/07/1991 not sure about the time though.

Name one comedy show we'd find you laughing at:
i don't really rmb, haha.

What is your favorite thing to eat with a cup of coffee?
anything that is nice and healthy =D

What is the thing we'd find you ordering at Starbucks?
ice coffee

What brand does your wardrobe mostly consist of?
adidas!! =D

Do you have all your teeth?
yea.

How about braces or a retainer?
Nope.

How is your eyesight?
Short-sighted.

Any glasses or contacts?
Contacts and glasses.

How many birth marks?
1 big wan bah lol.

What was the last song you listened to?
never go notice.

What was the last show you watched?
heaven sword and dragon sabre.

Who was the last person you talked to?
lifang.

Who was the last person you had a phone conversation with?
liying.

What was the last thing you ate?
bee hoon.

What was the last thing you drank?
plain water.

When was your last shower?
a few hrs ago

When was the last time you stopped to exercise?
very long time ago

After this, what will you be doing?
chat awhile, jiu sleep!! =D

ok thats all, LOL. updates soon ba haha =D

2008-10-01T18:35:00.004+08:00

HELLOS lols. jus back from bukit batok nt long ago, haha. ytd woke up late and went meet oscar edmund wz minglei lionel at lavender. minglei jus book out NS then decided to accompany him go out for the day LOL.
went walk arnd bfore going to sim lim square, then actually wan go play pool at bugis, in d end too ex. 1 hr $12.80 sia!! damn ex lor, then went food junction slack and eat dinner, while kenneth came then. after dinner, oscar kenneth minglei and edmund went hme, lawson came, and the 3 of us, wz lawson and me went play pool at bukit timah. long time nv play pool sia, hand itch liao haha. played for arnd 2 hrs then went eat supper bfore going lan shop see ppl play dota lols. i go in see, jiu catch no balls liao, duno wad dota is about LOL den they were there explaining to me wad the game is abt.
afta tat we head to wz hme, which is quite a distance from bukit timah. no bus 4 us take liao then we decided to walk. halfway thru suddenly heavy downpour, then we were like 3 crazy guys running like mad to the nearest bus stop to take shelter HAHA. there talk talk, bfore heading to wz hse again when the rain stops. whn rch his hse, we down there talk talk see bball videos, bfore going to slp at arnd 7 plus am in the morning, haha. then woke up arnd 2 plus in d afternoon lols, sian diao! plan to repair laptop today de but in d end overslept, LOL then bo bian another day repair lor. then went eat lunch bfore heading home. (:

2 days nv touch ball, feel abit wierd liao. looking forward to tml's training, haha. =D
k shall stop here. updates nxt time!! lol (:

time to let go , starts a new begining (:

2008-09-30T01:16:00.004+08:00

yoyoyo haha back to post again. today went bball training at sch in the morning.
great thing is tat i've got my jumpshot percentage back! =D though not fully but still can make it, hahaha. quite happy, then we proceed on with training.
today came lance, haha duno joey or wz pull him de,
well the more ppl, the merrier, right? hahaha. let them do some running physical and free throw conditioning, bfore train shooting.
oh man, we should really improve our team shooting, as it is quite below standard, in terms of our accuracy and consistency. it took us very long, agar about 45 mins to complete the 3 shooting drills i set for us. then after the drills was about to let them do dribble full court and fast breaks drills, but then was stopped by jianming, the team captain, when he jus rch the court. practice more shooting and free throws instead then. though abit wasted tat they didn spend more time on their fast breaks and dribbling, but well our shooting has alot to improve too. then afta training break, we went fc4 to eat lunch, bfore lawson and i went off early for camp debrief. (:
actually, i very disappointed in myself. cos i knew tat i didn put in my best effort for the camp, esp during camp preps. have to admit tat starting, i cant get used to this kind of lifestyle, where everyday have to report to sch frm morning to night, to do things. it is also abit diffcult for me to adapt to cadc style of working too. i wasn as focus during camp preps, partly the reason of not being able to play bball. many said tat i could do with more confidence. which is quite true. sometimes encounter problems when working in a team, like miscommunication, trust etc. my energy level during camp prep is rather low too, as was bothered about too much things. towards agar the middle of camp prep days tat i buck myself up, afta reflecting on myself. i've done much better afta that, but still it is not my 100%, though i tried to give my all. somehow jiu feel tat during camp prep, SOMETIMES i dun seems to be the real me.
on the actual camp itself, things get better. somehow jiu dun feel the stress liao then more confident in wad im doing, cos i told myself to follow my heart in doing wadever things i do. somehow only during the camp tat i've felt proud of myself for giving my best effort, which is a gd thing towards d end. other than that, jiu feel abit disappointed at myself. but well dou over liao, jiu shall not brood about it, haha. (: when comes FO camp prep, i would try not to repeat these same mistakes again, n like wad others say, have confidence, give my best and perform up to my fullest potential ba, haha. but i knew tat we 9 pcs had really sacrifice and put in alot of effort into this camp, though we made our own individual mistakes here n there, differences among each other, still we did nt give up each other, and continue to put in our best efforts with our hearts. this make the period of the camp preps worth remembering and cherishing. through these, we've from hi-bye friends become to bond into a bunch of close friends together. we all should cherish this affinity. haha on FO camp, we can all definitely improve and do to our best!! haha (:

2008-09-28T01:49:00.002+08:00

heys yoyoyo LOL this few days i have been playing bball everyday, working hard to get my ball sense back and enjoy playing for this few days. sometimes it felt so wierd tat i have so much free time, haha. perhaps too xi guan camp prep liao ba, lols. nvm, this give me more time to train back my shooting!! haha and catch up more with my sec sch friends and other friends. (:
thursday went for first bball training afta the camp ended . it was so long bfore i touch ball on tat day sia haha. trained physical bfore training fast breaks. after tat it is playing full court. playing more full courts and fast break drills i thinnk will definitely help them alot ba, as they are still nt so experienced in it, and fast breaks and simulation of full court matches s definitely very impt. then JM came and discuss with us abt the merger with sb de matter. in d end we still chose nt to merge and jus count our own for the intercons. well this incident benefits us in a way tat we became more bonded and more motivated to train more and put in more effort in training. haha lols after the discussion jiu ate our lunch and continue to train for the rest of the day til 6 plus, playing more full court, etc.nxt day went sembawang play ball again, then today went jurong, lol but this time round with jianle and melvin. actually is a training tat melvin is bringing us go, but jianle's ankle injured, then went off early. haha. so tats how i spend these few days! lol but sometimes, duno y, jus feel something is missing.
ahhhhhhhh forget it ba.. lol kk shall come back with updates again! hopefully with the photos for IC CAMP up too!! haha. (:

fate is just playing a fool of me.

2008-09-24T12:23:00.004+08:00

HELLOS!! haha im back again. photos for camp nt up yet, so cant update u guys the photos yet. good things must wait ma, haha. afta camp liao, nt xi guan dun nid go sch everyday for camp prep, LOL then life more relaxing le. well, finally nw i got the time to chiong my bball liao, =D my fitness dropped a little. but afta last night playing alot of 5 on 5 matches with the uncles with my friends, i felt better liao in my ball sense and fitness etc. 3 weeks left to chiong for intercons, haha. cadc team must buck up man, nw i cme back liao, jiu try to improve the current situation. but i believe that everything will turn for the better! (: goona hit the gym bball and swim these few wks haha, hope can increase my vertical jump also, then it would be far more better. i jump too short man, T.T hope can improve haha.
but then, for nw, things r really nt going right man. my acer laptop suddenly spoil, give me blur and white screen instead. then my skin sunburn til very jia lat, damn irritating. then ytd dad gave me problems and chu stunt again. shag, think liao also fan. hope everything will turn for the better ba. lols k shall stp here ba. updates on the photos next time !!

just let me forget all about u..

2008-09-21T13:42:00.002+08:00

hello everyone! im finally back to update my almost dead blog le hahaha. so long nv blog liao lor
cuz no time or no energy to blog since the last few wks haha. nw camp over liao finally got time le hahaha. the camp was over and it is a success! as we had all done our best efforts for this camp XD got a great sense of satisfaction sia after doing this camp, woohoos~
we have to thank ALL THE CAMPERS for taking out the time to come to our camp! cos without u al, our efforts wuld had all gone dwn to drain haha. hope u al have fun eh~?! =P then also have to thank the COOKS for cooking such delicious meals for everybody to keep our energy going and our stomach filled! then have to thank the MIUs for helping us to set up our stations and the camp fire, etc HAHA then last but not least my fellow PCs!! for our efforts and unity we put in to the camp regardless of problems and arguements etc. hope afta this camp we would still be very much bonded, and will go out often to play or study etc more often hahaha. wah nw my back n neck skin very pain, cos of sunburn lols. but oh well, it is worth it =D anw camp over liao can choing bball also le haha! bball here i come! wahahaha =D update on photos nxt time when i receive them! (:

2008-09-01T00:12:00.005+08:00

hey im back to update again, LOLs.
lets relate back ~ past few days been busying with camp preps at sch
been going sch early n rching hme late nwadays, haha
now can proclaim tat club is my 2nd hme liao, HAHA.
Camp is coming already in 2 weeks time ~ n we r like so excited n stress too.
i hope tat the camp would be funfunFUN! haha annd successful too. (:
eh if u r a sp student, non-cadc member or cadc member,
must come to the camp ar, hahaha dun look bck le, its YOU, LOLS!
then last fri, went back secondary sch for teacher day celebrations.
met up with many frens, classmates and teachers.
during the concert, we r lyk at the back, making a fool of ourselves, LOL
there chit chat, phototaking and playing hahaha.
it was a day well spent man, haha cuz seriously long time nv go back sec sch liao
and i like, miss sec sch alot la, haha.
after the concert, went down eat fishball noodles, LOLS.
long time nv eat liao, and tat is 1 of my fav dishes from the sch canteen in d past, haha.
then went cp to hang out with them at burger king, before heading to sch for song prep
below r some of d photos we took, lazy to upload all, hahaha.

mr tan ( former physics teacher) ken me (:

2008-08-25T01:49:00.002+08:00

heys yea, random post..
sian max, damn siannnnnn
lols. some1 help?
nt emo post, haha.
get tis right worr. haha.
ok duno wad to say liao
blog nxt time again..

2008-08-24T16:40:00.001+08:00

but i guess.. forgetting u is the best option.

2008-08-24T03:32:00.002+08:00

now everything's cleared.
start things all over again.
all i can say is,
i wanna start things all over again.
i lost to myself in d past, nt daring.
nw i dun wan to lose to myself again
i will work hard and go all out now.
untill.. if that day really comes..

2008-08-22T00:10:00.002+08:00

heys, some random post here, haha.
hmm tml is last paper for me, haha finish off tat damn paperjiu free liao, lol.
for the past few papers is quite ok la for me.
i can do, but gt some careless mistakes here n there zzz, lols..
tink can pass, but nt confident can get A ba? haha.
ay dou over liao, jiu dun wan tink so much abt it, haha.
nw is concentrate on wad i am going to do after this mid sessional exam.
got to have more song preps and camp preps liao, when nxt week start, may be quite busy, haha.
at the same time, planned some scheldue for me to follow.
where everyday bfore camp prep starts, (which i tink arnd 9am?)
i would train leg physical and my ball handling everyday, on alternate days.
i wan to get bck my fitness and jump HIGHER! haha and improve my ball handling too.
thus at the same time, im trying to improve my confidence level.
i can forsee tat it gt to take alot of self discipline to constantly follow my scheldue everyday.
but i gonna take this challenge on, lols, so then can improve
before the intercon starts nxt term.
the intercons wuld be vry impt to me, as i wan to play well n bring cadc up
at the same time gain experiences n most IMPTLY my confidence lols.
haha but anw i wun let this clash with my commitment in the IC CAMP, or others
tats why i have to really manage my time well, haha.
i wun oso like when prepare camp shi hou go play ball.
dun wry, i would still put my best for the IC camp haha.
hope tat u al can trust me, haha. ^^
haha hmm k shall stop here
updates nxt time ba, stay tuned~ (:

as long as ya happy ^^
我会给你最大的精神上的支持 (:

2008-08-18T01:58:00.002+08:00

heys random post here, lols.
friday went play ball with lawson sky n zhuang at sch til 9 plus
bfore go eat and bath, then went club
then went mobely study haha.
we ton whole night to study
but actually i really study only for 2 hrs. haha.
but ok la, you yong jiu hao haha! thn i went off first bfore them
rch hme watch ming zhong den go slp wake up study agn!!
zzz haha but tis time round with lawson n sky at rivervale plaza.
zhuang came afterwards and ton at my hse.
we there crap crap, watch ming zhong jiu slp liao, lols
kan bo liao la us, hahaha.
abit surpised tat parents allow fren to ton over so easily.
normally they will ask here n there and give black face, etc.
haha but this time round no, jiu abit wierd lols.
then wake up liao jiu use msn disiao ppl haha.
then jiu went koufu eat bfore head to skcc play ball
play awhile jiu saw punggol central playing full court friendly match.
i sweared tat 1 day, im gonna join tat team. lols.
haha wait for me ba, i will work my way up to it. haha.
then go hme change and went cck with zhuang
met zwei oscar edmund minglei kenneth and felicia. went there eat ljs.
wah i nv eat dao lor. dou shi pei them eat onli.
to think tat i went all the way to cck to see them eat, and then go hme! haha
shag si liao, hhaa. went hme watch ming zhong and chat.
bfore doing peee quiz and study abit.
then here i am blogging loe haha
so sian now lols.
few more days jiu exams le.
everybody JIAYOU haha.
until nw i felt nt prepared enough for exams sia.
but nvm, must believe in myself. haha.
i should do what i preach, right? ^^ haha.
kk shall stop here ba haha.
everybody good luck for your exams!! (:

2008-08-14T23:41:00.002+08:00

heys ppl! haha im back to blog again.
haha song session at last fri 08/08 is success! haha.
we learned15 club songs and the guitarist its guitar chords
over the last few weeks where we have song preps almost everyday, haha.
our effort and heart put into our song prepartions pays off, haha
so good job everybody and jiayou for the nxt song session! (:
haha after tat went bck club to rest awhile
and nt long afta jiu go hme liao while they ton at club
to pick twigs for indicators and chiong game reports.

then nxt day went see fireworks with zwei mary n lifang.
bfore meeting the gals, i met zwei at little india to get my psp repaired.
and then i got CHEATED by the stupid uncle. lols.
damn sian luh, haiz, but nvm over le jiu dun wan tink abt it. haha.
then afta tat meet them to eat bfore go find place to see fireworks.
it was so squeezy luh and we sweat lyk nobody's business luh.
lols but still worth it, cos the fireworks are nice, haha. ^^
then off we went to eat mac somewhere at bugis.
before heading hme, haha. a day well spent ba.

then the rest of the days did nth much ba.
finish lessons liao jiu go club do indicators
or play bball, haha.
we played bball ytd frm 2 plus to 7 plus ytd
in the end go hme so tired, but still worth it, hahaha.
welll i tink need improve on my confidence n dribbling ba.
kept lao qu when playing match zzz
nvm i will find ways to improve haha.
anw exams are coming soon sia, REAL SOON,
lols and i didn practise enough for my maths,
omg and i hate particularly trigo sia
so many formulas and things to learn zzz
all look alien to me, haha.
have to really subdue it by nxt tues maths test,
if nt sure dieeee, sian diao haha.
kk shall stop here ba
everybody jiayou and good luck in your coming exams!! ^^

cheer up yea? ^^

2008-08-06T01:08:00.003+08:00

heys hmm back for updates. (:
haha haven been blogging for so long, i guess is either i no time
or i too lazy to type la lols.
alot of things and events happened last few days
haha. just tat i am getting so busy as days come.
need to study for exams
need to learn club songs and guitar
chiong games report and design poster
presentations and mini tests
ahhh jus so much things la, lols.
i missed playing basketball sia.
as in really go play.
these few days go shoot ball, duno y cant really control my body posture
shots were unstable. sian sia, duno why.
and i dun have enough time for bball nwadays, makes me some kind
frustrated though, lols.
well nvm, sure got solution out de, haha. i believe i will go
play and chiong basketball again some day haha.
esp after ic camp, where i will have 2 more weeks
to chiong for the intercons coming up on oct. haha.
tml's poly50 coming up liao
and tml got a 30% test, which i felt tat i didn prepare much
and the day after friendly match against EEE
then fri official first song session and IDEA presentation, lols.
can see how stress up i am haha.

haha anw lately have been moody.
lols. the reason?
stress frm everything,
late go hme everyday
losing bball sense abit
and..? lols ay i dun care ba right now.
hmm but at least i learned guitar liaoo haha
a skill that i always wanted to learn.
maybe thinking of buying a personal guitar someday? haha.
see got cash anot first, bfore then say, LOL
hmm haha duno wad to say le
think shall end here ba,
updates on outings blah blah again!! haha. (:

dun leave me guessing.. or hanging.. confidence??

2008-08-03T00:10:00.005+08:00

quiz from zwei & mary & lifang

1. the last person to tag you is...
zwei.
mary
lifang
irene cadc

2. your relationship with him/her is...
zwei- good bro!!
mary- good fren
lifang- good fren
irene cadc- good fren

3. your first impression of him/her...
zwei - nth much, dun hav much impression ba
mary - very fierce, like bao jing tian LOL =P
lifang - a shy and quiet gal haha.
irene- hmm noisy n socialble? haha.

4. the most memorable thing he/she had done for you...
zwei - hmm teach me play guitar.
mary - being there for me.
lifang - using i give her de turtle hp strap.^^
irene - nt sure leh, lols.

5. the most memorable thing that he/she had said to you...
zwei - brother no matta wad happens
mary - im her lamb zzz LOL
lifang - saying gei wo ta de jing sheng shang de zhi chi, haha
irene - eh, happy birthday. haha

6. if he/she become your lover, you will...
zwei - omg i nt gay LOL
mary - provide a listening ear make her smile
lifang - give her happiness and my everything.
irene - ask her dun so noisy

7. if he/she became your lover,things he/she has to improve on will be...
zwei - i nt gay sia haha.
mary - smile more
lifang - doesn hav to improve anything, jus be herself.
irene - know her limits ba

8.if he/she became your enemy,you will...
zwei - emo
mary - emo
lifang - emo
irene - emo

9.if he/she became your enemy,the reason will be...
zwei - some misunderstandings?
mary - some misunderstandings?
lifang - some misunderstandings?
irene - some misunderstandings?

10.the most desired thing you want to do for him/her now...
zwei - be a true fren to him
mary - be a true fren to her
lifang - get ta wo jing sheng shang de zhi chi in wadever things she does
irene - ask her to be more self consicious ba. haha

11.your overall impression of him/her...
zwei - very ON and worthy gd fren.
mary - nice gal, jus tat no confidence in herself
lifang - nice and shy gal, but mus hav more courage in dealing with things (:
irene - nt very close with her, but quite a gd fren ba haha

12.how you think people around you will feel about you...
jus another guy??

13.the character you love of yourself is...
being true to ownself and others

14.on the contrary,the characters you hate of yourself are..
indecisive, think too much unneccesarily

15.the most ideal person you want to be is..
being happy and making others happy

16.for the people that care and like you, say something to them..
THANKS LOADS!! i care and love u al too, LOL

Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you.

1.oscar
2. zwei
3. wei zhuang
4. kenneth
5. qiaoyan
6. carlyn
7. lifang
8. mary
9. jiayi
10. caishi

18. who is no 6 having relationship with?
hmm some guy frm sp oso haha

19. is no 9 a male or female?
female, lols
20.if no 7 and 10 are together,will it be a good thing?
is impossible, cos they nt les HAHA

21.what is no 2 studying about?
architeture??

22. when was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
just nw at sch

23.what kind of music band does no 8 like?
ehh i nt sure leh, chinese sentimental songs?!

24. does no 1 have any siblings?
1 sister yup haha

25.will you woo no 3?
i wunt, cos i ain't gay LOL

26. how about no.7?
hmm yea.

27.is no 4 single?
yup lol

28.what is the surname of no 5?
i duno sia haha

29.what's the hobby of number 4?
watch hentai?! LOLS! joking haha!

30.does no 5 and 9 get along well?
they duno each other

31.where is no 2 studyin at?
SP!!

32.talk something casually about no 1.
good bro for 4 going to 5 years le
a good friend and is easy to talk to

33.have you tried developing feelings for no 8?
no haha

34.where does no 9 live at?
sengkang?!

35.wad colour does no 4 like?
i nt sure leh
haha lols

36.are no 5 and 1 best friends?
hai hao ba?!

37.does no 7 like no 2?
i duno.

38.how did you get to noe no 2?
thru CADC SEHPOPS!!

39.does no 1 have any pets?
nope haha he's scare of them haha lols

40.is no 7 the sexiest person in the world?
hmm sexy is the wrong word to use.

wah almost slp liao LOLS haha.
the test so long. but i still managed to complete it. haha (:
updates soons (:

2008-07-23T23:44:00.002+08:00

Reply to tags (:

Oscar: haha too bad do again lor =P

Ken: i dun wan leh, hahaha, but ok la, thanks for the present anw(:

jianle: haha sure can play ma? lols =P

ahZhuang: lols wad? very sheng qi meh tat i update? hahahaha =P

carlyn: haha thanks carlyn (: and i nv emo! jus write out my feelings onli haha (:

lawson: i wil be waiting for that day, LOL =P

XINLEI: u mother mary ma, correct wad haha =P MOTHER MARY!! haha hmm thanks anw (:

lifang: haha thanks.. u also luh haha (:

2008-07-23T00:05:00.002+08:00

hello again people
hmm back for updates again haha.

ever since term 2 start im getting busier n busier
alot of events and stuffs happened
and quite a few birthday celebrations
lack of sleep and all sort of stuffs
make me dwn with soar throat, flu n fever zzz
but anw today is qy bday
yenceen and gang planned 3 stations and lastly celebration for her at moberly
we had fun there and me n zhixuan was
eppo for no reason! =.=
haha lols is painful de la. haha
anw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY QY(:
haha lols hmm today woke up with all the above stated illness =.=
whole day damn sian, no mood talk or study
cos doesn feel good
but at least went club le
felt better, haha..
hmm anw i've been falling behind in my studies
and everything i used to always do in my life.
and tat is play and train bball and improve, pursuing my dream
but i jus dun hav enough time for everything..
or am i giving excuses? lols i really duno
i guess i should really buck up and priortise
but somehow even if sometimes
get to play ball awhile or train physical
i felt tat i've drift away from it..
my passion for bball is still there, but is jus
i feel tat i had nt done enough to improve
and have not been playing competitive bball for so long liao..
haiz i dun wanna drift away from wad i love alot
i must not lose faith in myself.
how good wuld it be to relate to some1 everything abt bball
and how much it mean to me, and understands..
i really should start planning my daily scheldue le.
but still, friends and CADC still rocks la (:
well shall stop here bah
updates again next time (:

2008-07-20T14:25:00.003+08:00

Survery qns by lifang (:

Name 20 people whom you think of right now. Don't read the questions till you've
named 20 people. At the end of this, choose 5 people to do this.

1. oscar
2. zwei
3. jianle
4. joey
5. wei zhuang
6. lifang
7. wingtong
8. zhixuan
9. minglei
10. edmund
11. xinlei
12. stephanie
13. reenie
14. qiaoyan
15. tanya
16. carlyn
17. felicia
18. lawson
19. baihong
20. vincent

Q1. How did you meet 14?
eh cadc lor. haha

Q2. What would you do if you've never met 1?
i would have 1 less close friend. ):

Q3. What if 9 and 20 date?
oh man, they would be gays LOL

Q4. Will 16 & 17 date?
if they are les ba haha

Q5. Describe 3?
1 of my close friends, a true friend tat nv walks away
when ya in trouble.

Q6. Descibe 7?
1 of my close friends, some1 good in art
and does crazy things all the time haha

Q7. What would you do if 18 confess to you that he/she likes you?
i will turn crazy cos im nt gay LOL

Q8. Who is 9 going out with?
ehh i nt sure

Q9. When was the last time you talk to 13?
ehh ytd bah, during heritage trail haha

Q10. Who is 2's favourite band/singer?
eh i nt sure, i onli knws he like to hear chi song (:

Q11. Would you ever date 4?
im nt gay pls haha lols

Q12. Would you ever date 1?
im nt gay!!

Q13. Is 19 single?
Yupp (:

Q14. Would you ever be in an relationship with 11?
no bah lols. she is mother mary sia LOL

Q15. Sch of 3?
TP (:

Q16. Where does 6 live?
Bukit Panjang (:

Q17. What is your favourite thing of 5?
he is a gd friend of mine, steady and gd listener.

Q18. Have you ever seen 10 naked?
half naked ba LOL

The 5 choosen ones to do this quiz:
oscar
liying
carlyn
joey
junhong

2008-07-15T23:33:00.011+08:00

hey all! im back for updates.(:
haha it has been ages since i blogged, have been busy lately.
sorry for the delay!
haha hmm lets start off at 11july a fri.
everything went normal that day, and had debate agm after playing some basketball
in the evening. then oscar ask me to go play ball again.
i change into my jersey and went to play.
but after a short awhile, they say go fc5
celebrate YenCeen birthday.
so we went fc5 with me sweating like nobody biz lols
then as i approached their table
they suddenly sing happy birthday song to me and yenceen.
i was like so shock luh! =X hahaha. didn expect it.
then i was there with my jersey and sweating
which seems very wrg la, haha.
then cut cake and took some photos bfore i request to go change tshirt
but the guys insist of following me so i wil nt run away frm their eppo session zzz
which is expected, hahahaha.
on the way i change alrdy, then as i rch sports hall,
i ran away as fast as i can.
until a staircase mei you li liao haha
then see edmund coming wo jiu sian liao.
dun wan run, ren ming le, LOL
then dragged back to fc 5 and they surpise me with a "present"
and tat present has 17 layer covered, 9 of which
consist of forfeit that i hav to do. LOL die liao lor.
then jiu bo bian do all those forfeit in the public!
omg i guess im more well recognised liao ever since that day, HAHA
and last 2 is standard, i also knw liao, when they crowd over me.
confirm is eppo and squeeze neh neh and it was true alright
omg!! haha lols
then open to the last layer finally got real present liao haha.
and is a wallet frm lifang mary tanya jamie reenie carlyn zhixuan
(did i miss out any1??)
with lifang mary reenie and zhixuan funny pic inside.
so funny nahs their faces haha (:
but nonetheless, i like it (:
haha lols then the others gave me a basketball as a present.
with their signature all over by almost every1 in the club.
haha touched la. (:
fang xin i wunt play the ball de!! will put at hse for display
haha lols!!
hmm then caishi gave me a birthday card.
it was quite creative and well done, haha
thanks alot (:
and then we took quite alot of photos
and ate the cake before we head back to club.(:
THANKS EVERBODY for celebrating my birthday with me
and the presents!! =D
i appreciate all this very greatly (:
alright let the photos do the talking ba =D

5 years best buddy (:

me and some of the cck gangs (:

me and the girls.(:

me with almost entire cadc yr1!! and some grads haha(:

the guys(:

another group photo(:

haha and on the way home
met up with hweiteng
and she gave me a bday card for my present (:
it was very well done and creative too (:
thanks alot haha (:

haha and on 12th july nxt day, my actual bday,
went meet some peeps at vivo to do some club stuffs
and they surpise me with a small cake (:
well i was kana smash by the cake, LOL
but nvm! cos the cake quite nice to eat
haha lols =P
THANKS for the cake and the mini celebration (:
these are the limited pics i have LOL (:

me holding the guitar, LOL

candid shot

then at night went find DANCHUNS and some sec friends!! (:
haha we met at compass point and took bus 86 to jalan kayu go eat roti prata
jianle gave me some sort of a scarf, zz LOL
haha thanks anw (:
we ate prata and talk alot
jiayi they all treat me a icecream prata for my bday
it was yummy, LOL thanks!! (:
and yj finally came and we took her dad's lorry back to sengkang (:
at first intend to go sculpture park and chat
but dad called me up and said had prepare a cake
and waiting for me to go up.
then yj suggested the idea of going up to my hse to cut cake
so off we went to my hse (:
we watched tv and wait for my mum to come back
before the cutting of cake begin
we took quite alot of photos
and ate the cake, before every1 was tired
and decided to went home.
THANKS DANCHUNS AND FRIENDS for celebrating my bday with me (:
then oscar ton at my hse on tat day to tcm haha
we there tcm until 5 plus before we went into deep slp
woke up 1pm the following day before having lunch with oscar.
after tat went hme change and went studying with edmund
before go sbc see match.
tat day is the youth cup final for under 18..
the atmosphere were great and the top 6 teams were great to watch
although i didn get to play youth cup this year.
i knw i will nxt year (: and im gonna get into at least top 6 for nxt yr youth cup.(:

ok thats all, woah a long post haha lols
THANKS EVERYBODY AGAIN!!, CADC, DANCHUNS, ETC
i appreciate all this alot alot (:

2008-07-04T23:16:00.006+08:00

hey.. i am back!(: hmm i didn post for the past few days..
nwadays is either busy, or too tired to post.
anw i got back 2 out of 3 mst paper back liao le.
DE>> 62/100
PEEE>> 83/100
left maths haven take back, wonder hw wuld it be like.
hope can get 80 and above (A grade) (:
tml grad night liao, after tat tonning out (:

from the moment u say tat it is nt possible to win the big players on the opposite court.
i realise tat even u had stop believing.
i was disappointed at first.
but after much tinking, i ought to thank u instead.
cos ur disbelief in me has woke me up alrdy, frm slacking all the while
and giving excuses.
u let me realise that action speaks louder than words.
although perhaps u dun meant to make it realise it.
i didn tried my best in my games nwadays.
and my fitness drop a little.
my ball sense getting weaker
i gave up easier and didn self train for so long..
even though my skills improved alot ever since last time.
but i've lost the drive to be better as compared to last time.
ever since failing to get into youth cup..
i knw that i mus stop giving excuses, and have faith.
if i didn tried my best in my games, didn tried my best to improve.
i wuld be kicking at myself, cos im losing to myself..
i dun wan to lose to myself.. i wan to prove to everybody tat i can succeeded 1 day..
at least i knew tat i gave my best
at the same time, i wun stop enjoying basketball whereas train or play
cos it is a privellage and enjoyment to play basketball, to me.
i can accept failure, but i can't accept not trying again.
the only person tat can beat me is myself.
and i wunt lose to myself.

but after all, who would understand how i feel?
no 1, perhaps.

2008-06-30T00:42:00.010+08:00

hello all! =D
im here to blog abt ytd (28th june)
hmm morning went sch intending for cadc bball training session.
in the end onli me lawson n darren, zzz
well so i intro them some drills

and some footwork and skills practice bfore we end at 12pm.
went club rest awhile, and was shock tat alot of ppl was in the club
given tat it is a sat,
then realise tat they are all welfare peeps and having a meeting.
we dwn there rest and talk about nxt bball session, etc
then off i go to sentosa to meet DANCHUNS. (:
hmm only half of danchuns went for the outing
me jianle tong shaun huimin and jiale
we had fun playing volleyball
and water in the beach.
it was damn humid la, but the sunlight last awhile only
cant really suntan):
but nvm! nxt time got chance!! haha =D
hmm then we went to bath, change into new clothes
and waited for the girls to come and went back vivo.
yj came and meet us then we took train.
they went marina square to find steph? i think and i went back sengkang alone
to go hme bath, change and meet some cadc peeps at pasir ris. (:
met weizhuang oscar edmund zwei qy lawson and darren at the food court
ate our dinner and proceed to buy bday cake
to celebrate pris belated birthday (:
then the cck gang came=P
lifang mary and reenie
then we walk to pasir ris park.
we walk dammnnnnn long before we found a place for us to sit
and put our bags then edmund n oscar went fetch priscilla come
then we dwn there play cards and tcm awhile
before oscar called and we prepare the cake. (:
then they came and we shouted the
wang li chan cheng wang li chang thing.
then sing 3 diff version of bday songs LOL

these are some photos when we celebrate pris bday (:
and then we move hse go playground there
edmund n minglei took care of bags while we went play.
we climbed the spiderweb, play the slides
turn the duno wad thing, LOL
and then we sat dwn and sing cadc songs
and chinese songs, LOL we are 1 bunch of crazy ppl =P

LOLS then we went back find edmund and minglei
then edmund there kb, say we ps him LOL
damn funny larh he,
his reaction all tat make me weizhuang and oscar
laugh like shit, hahaha =D
then we start to prank cal ppl
most were nt tricked, siannn
but kenneth's acting is damn real and funny la LOLS

kenneth there "big holin" haha lols
and then we laughed non-stop thruout the process
haha lols then we went the "floating stone" to tcm and enjoy sea breeze
me, zwei & kenneth was kind enough
to go cheers buy drinks for them. =D
we took abt 45mins la to go cheers, buy and come back.. zzz
then we there tcm, and watch stars
until 6 plus we go mac eat breakfast
before heading home. (:
lols kk shall stop here.
updates nxt time (:

2008-06-28T01:46:00.008+08:00

hello everyone! =D haha. i come here to blog again,
after 3 days nt blogging, lol.
haha hmm nth really happen past few days
everyday finish sch will go dwn club
find club friends they al lor.(:
and qy is always kana shoot =P
LARHA! haha qy fav quote =P
hmm wed went gym after club
then thurs i stay at club until close with zwei they al
and we went clementi to eat dinner (:
then after dinner some left and only left
the seh pops! me, zwei, oscar, edmund, ah zhuang
haha lols we went hdb void deck tcm
and took some lame pics

suddenly we realise that all of us have sony ericsson hp
and all is walkman hp! except for zwei,
which is cyber shot hp, haha so we use his hp to take the pic lor.
and well,we really nth do anw LOL

comes friday 27th june (:
met they al at club at 1.30pm
have lunch at a restaurant in SP
the service is lyk omg sucks la, but nvm
the food is nice!(: and someday im gonna try their buffet along with oscar! hahaha
and comes 3.30pm and jamie gather us all
get money frm us for the cake for lifang surpise bday celebration
and agar agar brief us wad to do later
when she rch fc5 haha.
we r suppose to separate into 2 grps,
try nt to let lifang see us, so we can like last min surpise her.
1 grp is at kfc table talking
and another grp is in the popular pretending to read magazines LOL
bu hui zai ming xian yi xia haha!
hmm then jamie gave me the signal to come out
and all of us just surround lifang's table
and zwei n jamie came out of bang deli
with the cake
and we sang bday song and all that
and took some photos. (:

our group photo (:

the girls

the guys & lifang

haha and after all these
jiu cut cake and eat the cake liao
the cake nt bad la, quite nice actually =P
hmm then shortly after
i pass her present as well
then we went back to club
we tcm down there and had alot of laughter
then we decided to go jp eat dinner
and omg! tat stupid ahzhuang go disiao me
then i disiao him back and i run off LOL with him chasing me
and after tat, cos of HIM i was kana eppo! zzz
all your fault la ahzhuang! hahaha
i wan to keep my record of nt being eppo for first year
then you spoil tat -.- hahhaa, nvm nxt time see u die liao haha
ate dinner at foodcourt in jp
and me zwei joey and baihong took cab
i went woodlands training while they went
nyp for their sch concert thing..
after training went koufu and look for some frens
sit and talk around awhile jiu go home liao (:
haha ok la getting sleepy le
tml is a long and fun day ahead haha=D
good nights everybody!! (:

and oh ya,
dun say i not good,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO LIFANG!! =D

2008-06-24T23:58:00.002+08:00

giving up is always the easy way out, but once you give up, you gave yourself up
i know what is within me
and i will be what i want to be
it is the belief, attitude and passion that makes a difference.

2008-06-24T23:07:00.002+08:00

hmm today damn siann
i woke up late today, suppose to meet edmund they all at sp to eat at 12
bfore go take DE test at 1.30
but i woke up at 11.30 instead =.=
then edmund called up and kb LOL
sorry la, bu shi gu yi de haha.. =P
rch club to find they al at 12.45
then edmund and i was late for the DE test too =.=
when we go in, it was like wahh
everybody concentrating on their papers liao
see liao sian half, then quickly take out my things den go do.
den the qns like WTH la.
ask also nv ask properly
then the teacher say 14 minutes left
i thought he say 40 minutes sia then i slowly do.
then suddenly after awhile he say 1 minute left
i was stunned.. and only then i knew i heard wrongly. zzzzzzzz
ended up 20 plus worth of marks gone zzzzzzzz
and mcq do too fast
2 careless mistakes..
OMG can go die liao.
i must chiong for PEEE and MATHS liao
but oh man, my maths trigo seriously sucks.
i need to buck up. (: haha

i was seriously very tired nwadays.
early cme back hme, also sian.
see my dad face, jiu sian.
never hav 1 time we share same view on 1 thing
and never hav a time he wuld not show and release his frustrations on every1 else, esp me. =.=
and my sis giving problems too, haiz.
sometimes i cant help but admit
that staying at hme sux.):
well nights everybody (:

2008-06-23T23:13:00.002+08:00

hmm just finished linking up some peeps
i lazy to link all luh, haha. so link around like that can alrdy
hmm tml first paper alrdy lol.
1st time taking exams in sp
wonder how it will turns out to be, haha
hmm kk need go study awhile, then jiu go to sleep liao.
nights everybody. :D

2008-06-22T22:52:00.003+08:00

hey haha i guess everything is agar agar finished alrdy
only that i didn link up any1 yet, lol.
well, jus forget it bah so troublesome and everything haha. i knw im lazy =P
i was wondering whether my blog skin, is it too plain?
like got only a pic of basketball and the ring, and there is no pics alrdy, lol
but comes to think of it, it is quite nice actually.
though abit plain but it is nice and simple. (: haha..

wahh this coming week is mst wk liao
im worried abt my maths
Trigonometry i dun really knw the chpt
and then the others although understand liao still shaky sia
but heng, at least it is on thurs.
tues DE still alright i think i can handle it well haha.
wed PEEE shuld be no prob bah??
lol unsure, dare nt be too over confident.
hmm actually was looking forward to friday.
cos it wuld be the end of mst
and there will be an event on that day. :D
hope everything will turn out fine and happy. (:

tml going sch study, sch gym and training my jumpshot in sch
i hope i can get more used to
on the spot shooting lol.
as it is a very impt basic
as i knw my basic is rather weak.
but 1 day
i have to continue my gym training programme again
and strengthen my leg muscles so can train vertical jump.
i cant give excuses to my ownself liao
have slacked the past few days
mymca camps, study blah blah
so i must get back on it asap
if nt i wuld never be able to pull ring
so i must do it..

well got nth to say liao lol
update next time bah
consider quite gd liao la, sec post jiu so long liao haha. (:

failure always made me try harder next time. (:

my first post. :D

2008-06-22T12:40:00.003+08:00

wah duno after how many donkey months
then i can set up my blog LOL
thanks to caishi for helping me to set up.
hahahha =D
ehh nw is my blog competed?
i wan to edit my wishes n everything sia.
some1 HELP!!! haha.
ok,
what a fantastic first post, lol =P